Goodbye’s are hard to do

Our sweet beautiful girl has joined her brother Elwood in Heaven.
Although a piece of our heart is broken, our sweet, chatty little shakey girl, who sounded like a big giant and who never missed a treat, will forever be a part of our family.
Paisley saved me when we were going through infertility, at only 23. At a time in my life when I felt absolutely broken, this sweet little furry girl gave me so much love and hope. She was by my side with her brothers Elwood and Becker through some very challenging times, but even more fun and loving times like bringing each of our kids home! A bond our girls, Pais and Maddy had that was even stronger! It will never been the same coming in and not hearing her meow. I cherish all our moments with her. Our sweet girl we miss you so much, we are so happy you chose us to live your life with. You are now at peace…

I’ve struggled with emotional eating since my early teens. Literally disconnecting and using food as my comfort.

The more purposeful and aware I am in my life, the healthier my eating is! With the Christmas and New Year holidays I was more conscious of what I was eating, but will admit I indulged.

This week has been tough. I miss my girl. So much. Knowing she is at peace helps, but it still hurts.

Last night I let my emotions get the best of me and food was my comfort. It’s a slippery slope when you have shifted your habits. Today I woke up feeling still full! Not feeling comfortable in my own skin. Feeling full and dehydrated 😦 When I get up in my head I can also forget to drink water consistently, which affects how I feel as well. Slippery slope!

Dinner tonight started with a big beautiful salad! My body now craves these. I used to think it was salads causing some digestive issues, it was certain things IN the salad that were! The more I listen to my body, honestly the happier it is, and easier I can shift.

I love hearty salads with crunch! Beautiful presentation… and then mix it up for the rest of dinner to join 😉

While I tackled some of my to-do list, my husband made dinner! I’m so thankful when we can divide and conquer, not only does the food taste better but it’s so much more efficient!

Tonight I gained some control back. Along side the delicious chicken and mashed potatoes my husband made I crafted that beautiful salad! But admit I did cave as well. Our daughter made us gluten free home made cookies. How could I not 😉 Its all balance and tonight felt challenging. Cleaning up some of our girl Paisley’s things.

I had a “list” of what I needed to get done tonight. That was one thing. Among a few others that legit in total all took less than 1 hour of actual time. I spent so much energy focusing on this short list, because my emotions were in the driver’s seat.

I know I’m going to still have challenges with my emotions. After our boy Elwood passed and Becker joined our family, I still miss my Elwood dearly. I will always miss my loved ones and cherish their memories whether they have 2 or 4 legs ❤

The more personal work I do with myself, the more aware I am in my life and can shift my energy when needed, also feeling confident that even if I do slip up (um hello no one is perfect), I can always move forward again! Life is for learning!