Mother’s Day 2020

A mothers day that will go down in history. Also one where I have such conflicting feelings.

An abundance of love and compassion for the 2 beautiful children I have been gifted. Through the trials and tribulations of infertility they truly are my greatest gifts and best accomplishments in my life.

My heart is also hurting.

For the past 15 years we have celebrated Mother’s Day with an important mama in Heaven, my husbands mom, my mother in law Diane. We miss her nearly everyday, just not Mother’s Day.

We are grateful to be able to celebrate Mother’s Day with my mom each year… except this year. This Mother’s Day morning filled me with sadness and tears. Gratitude to be with my husband and our two “babies” but missing our “norm”.

I pulled myself together and we as a family did some distanced drop off’s (which I’m just going to admit I’m SO past this… people are not meant to isolate from each other all.the friggin.time. I digress…) and then had a family zoom Mother’s Day online call which was cool and lifted my spirits even more! Ended with our own little family dinner to celebrate ME 🥰!

I am so grateful for our life together, including the challenges we have faced. Being a mama isn’t an “easy job”, especially when it began with so much pain and ill health. What I continue to remind myself is I have the power to direct the wind in my sails. We are not all in the same boat during this pandemic, but we are in the same storm. Much like life in general. None of us live the exact same life, we grow, adapt, shift and make our life what we want it to be!

This year turned out to be pretty amazing and next year, along with every other will be it’s own amazingness 🙏💕!

Thank you my babies for choosing me to be your mama and always encouraging me to be truly authentic!