A Year Ago October 2020

Although we have come a very long way since that day, October 16, 2020, its truthfully been a journey. For him physical and emotional and me highly emotional.

I will never forget that morning, Friday October 16th, it was a “normal” Friday at work, I got the guys going and then instead of going back to my desk I went through things and got some other work orders organized and ready for when one of them came back.

I didn’t realize until I sat down to write this, how much pain is still trapped inside of me that I need to work through and release.

Its like God knew, I needed to get my mind in the right place because not long after I would get the shock of my life.

Thankfully, my husband survived the fall off a roof that morning as they were just getting set up to start a job. Sadly, the healing continues both physically and emotionally. Ive come to realize that PTSD is a very very real thing and should never be minimized by anyone.

My husband’s journey aside, as that is his journey. What has the past year looked like for me…

• Normalize crying – if you haven’t already – its FUCKING NORMAL to FEEL your feelings.
• Normalize emotions even more for our children and how important it is to FEEL.
• Its ok to acknowledge the fear, the still continued unknowns and the intense sadness.
• Its 100% NOT selfish to feel frustrated, sad, angry, hurt, overwhelmed all at the same time sometimes and need alone time.
• Major highs and lows – the unknowns is what rocked me – even the simplest thing like a song “Waves” that came out this summer, an awesome song but wow did it ever make me bawl simply because our version of summer would not be like any summer before. I had to literally detach from SO much that was our “norm”. This was a process and we are both (all) in a better place now I truly feel.
• Feel even more solidified in my belief of empowered holistic health care and ensuring a loved one is ALWAYS allowed in with you at ANY medical appointment. Your body, not the doctor’s. If something does not seem right – its not. Regardless of what it is, if you do not feel in alignment – why?
• Always question… no matter who or what!
• That I CAN do hard things. Truly grateful for our teenage son, while his dad has been unable to do alot of things this past year, he has been a huge help to me!
• TRUST IN ME – my heart and soul really do know what’s up ❤