The Impact of Grief on Daily Life and Wellness

The reality of grief and living life can sometimes hit you harder than you want and take you by surprise, in a sense.

As our week was leading up to a birthday celebration for our daughter, I could feel my energy having a bit harder time with things. Fully transparent, we had a full week leading up to it with being out of the house every single night. Not sure if this is a projector energy thing, however Ive definitely learned that I need my down time to recharge.

The day came for us to celebrate her and so did some really big emotions. Like hit driving home and massive alligator size tears falling. Everything came together beautifully. Honestly I was also worried of how our pup would behave with everyone over, this winter was one that he didn’t see many extras and he did wonderful! The evening pulled together beautifully for our girl.

Its incredible how things unfold and flow in and out of our lives, the less resistance we have the better the flow. The other day, I felt completely out of the flow, I had even meal prepped for my day, so that everything would flow perfectly. We had left over pasta so I used that to make a pasta salad with tuna, a yummy dressing, carrots and celery. As I was making it, I clearly heard – why are you adding in tuna when you know its going to make you feel off… I ignored that warning. After consuming the tuna salad, I knew it was against my better judgement of what my intuition had warned. Within the afternoon my energy felt more drained, exhausted actually, I could feel a headache coming on and just the overwhelming feeling of blah!

I got home from work and exactly what I wanted to do was lay on the couch and just cry and have myself a little pity party. Well, after I promised my dog a walk each day after work now that the nice weather is here, I couldn’t go back on my promise to him! With the excitement in his eyes and eagerness to go out with mom. I did it, I cried, he walked, we both worked on training – in more ways than one. When I got home, my husband had arrived and our son was heading out. Life chapters are interesting, which I also feel I am still adjusting with.

As I was telling my husband about how I was feeling, he grabbed a can and looked up the ingredients, simple – Tuna, Water and Sea Salt – which confused me more, WHY does it make me feel like this every time I eat it? What is interesting is my husband googled Selenium which 1/2 a can is 69% of your daily intake. High selenium can cause skin rash, nausea, diarrhea, fatigue, irritability and nervous system abnormalities – interesting right!? I find all of these signs fascinating as I was experiencing feeling slightly nauseous, extremely fatigued, irritable and my nervous system was off. What is interesting, is this may not even affect anyone else like it does me, our bodies are so unique and different.

The more aware I am with my health and body, the better equipped I am able to handle the grief waves. When hit with one, when feeling down, its much worse than being hit with one and feeling much higher vibe. Eating and drinking foods that align with that, is key!