Beach Babes!

Loving the water in May! I love that they love getting in the water as soon as they could 🙂

Remind Me…

Remind Me…

This song holds a lot of meaning for my husband and I. Last year when it came out, he heard it and immediately related it to us, we’ve always loved each other, always been in love, however with the stresses of day to day life from the time we tried to grow our family, dealth, illness in our family, being blessed with two babes 18mths apart after TTC for 16mths and my own health issues, we have never had the chance or opportunity to truly reconnect.

After moving into our new home last July, hubby brought this CD home – said it was “our” new song for our new beginning in our new home. Many nights we danced  to this song in our living room. The words are so very true and since then we began growing back together as a couple, not just as husband and wife and mom and dad, but as individuals and two people coming together, together to walk hand in hand towards our goals and dreams.

Our love continues to grow stronger each and everyday ❤ Loving that he is the one I am going to grow old with! We’ve always been a perfect fit, sharing a love that is perfect for each other, we fit, we get each other, we share the same hopes and dreams, we truly have everything we have been working so hard for and have always wanted… thankfully we took the time to take that step back to remind ourselves this and fall even deeper in love! ❤

The mama-razzi strikes again!

I just love letting these two be themselves and capture their true moments!!!

Sitting back and just observing, giving them subtle hints and slight direction of what would be soooo fun… and of course perfect for a photo 😉

Thankfully these two are used to mommy’s camera and will continue about their playing while essentially ignoring me at times lol.

Endometriosis, PCOS, Hypothyroidism and VMAX

Two weeks ago I finally took the plunge and went and tried out the new VMAX Fitness centre in town… I really didn’t know what to expect but did have high hopes as I had been told it is excellent for pain. So Friday after picking up the kids and hubby coming home from work I thought to myself – you’ve got the opportunity… GO.

I went back the next morning and signed up for their 2 month package.

I have been going everyday, except Sunday’s and this past Saturday, I didn’t want to push myself after the 2 classes I went to Thursday and Friday plus doing a couple sessions on my own both days.

I am not shy, now, about the health issues I have. I have also always had pain when exercising… when I had my hysterectomy I knew it probably wouldn’t take away all the pain, but its made a huge difference. However I’ve always had pain if I’ve tried to do abdominal exercises – in my pelvis and lower back. In the 4 1/2 months since my surgery I have thankfully had a lot less pain and been a lot more comfortable, however the pelvic pain when I have tried to do exercises for my belly it hasn’t been very comfortable, for my lower back especially. Which has been the bitter sweet part, yes I’ve had a lot less pain and I’m thankful for that, heck my hubby and kids are too, but I was feeling extremely frustrated knowing I needed to begin doing more exercising but physically not being able to. Damned if I do, damned if I don’t. I would never go back and not have had the hysterectomy though. My quality of life is so much better… and getting much more better!

The first week and a half at vmax I used the Trio and did the programs Tasha recommended. I honestly began to feel my core beginning to strengthen, and without pain! I actually could feel my muscles working and I felt good! One of the reasons I was hesitant in going was I wasn’t yet a believer, it had to be too good to be true, you stand on a vibration plate and lose weight… but no you don’t just stand there.

I googled to see if I could find anything on the health issues I have and vibration training, but nothing, nothing at all current or local. I am not getting my hopes up for anything too spectacular to happen, however I certainly have noticed I am feeling better, my core is stronger, I do have more energy and lucky me, hubby said he has noticed I am toning up!

In just over 2 weeks I have gone from someone wishing I could be into fitness to someone who looks forward to going to the VMAX Fitmess Centre to work out.

As someone who once was a non-believer, I am loving grabbing the exercise mat and feeling the sweat drip off me – the class I went to I learned some awesome core exercises!!! And even after doing the core exercises doing another 10 minute set on the machine doing squats and ab exercises. What’s even better is I can go wearing my work clothes, I can go at any time that’s convenient to me and it doesn’t take much time. The energy I am feeling now is great, I feel so wonderful after and look forward to everyday I go back.

For anyone living with either, or all like me, PCOS, Endometriosis or Hypothyroidism should give it a shot! I certainly am glad I did, I thought I had my life back before, but I didn’t have this energy. I’m looking forward to when I do my measurements again. 😉

Water babies in May!

Love this photo for the obvious, its our kids, but also for the scenic landscape view of the sand, sky and water.

The cottage is a favourite place of mine and always will be. First a fav of mine, then my husband’s, our children, our family and this year Becker will get a taste of the cottage love 😉

11 years ago… the first day of the rest of our life together!

In a way it doesn’t feel like its been “so” long and yet in another way it feels like its been forever that we’ve know each other. I remember the weekend we met like it did happen yesterday, I never would have thought going to see my cousins car race in Conneticuit would end up being the place I would meet my husband to be. The girls and I joked about who could pick up or get some free drinks. Given I had just gotten out of a crap relationship a few months prior I certainly was not looking, but fate was on my side and had different plans for me 😉

We have had our share of stresses since becoming a couple, many of which not many would survive. In our time together, actually up until our son was born we went through every stress imaginable including illness, death, marriage, home ownership, infertility, running a business, family issues… and the list could go on.

Going through our infertility battles took a true hit on us, especially on me which affected us, my husband did not know how to fix it or make it better. However no matter any crap we may have went through we always said I love you, and always kept reaching for our dreams – together.

In 11 years so much has changed, we have grown as individuals, as a couple and as parents. On November 30th of last year I had a surgery which we had been putting off for a while, knowing that it would be my next option for my own comfort and quality of life but also putting my husband and children first. After 11 years of dealing with ongoing pain, then my own body fighting against a dream of mine, for years I have felt broken. After having this surgery, it has not “fixed” me but its finally given me the opportunity to feel better, for my quality of life to improve and most of all my life with my husband and children.

Finally having relief from the pain and discomfort I had been dealing with for more than 11 years, I was given back a part of my life. The most importamt part of my life, the quality time with my family. The opportunity to reconnect with my husband on a very deep level during my healing and strengthen our love, the love we have shared for 11 years but since having kids and health issues had become mundane. Being in pain everyday made it very hard for me to function with the day to day and stressors.

Our 11 year anniversary will always be special. I know I will never live entirely pain free, however I have been able to get my life back. The biggest thing I have learned this year is to stop putting myself and my needs aside, to be proud of myself and not let anyone bring me down, most of all that with love and hard work… its amazing what you can accomplish!

I love my husband and the life we have created together and everyday appreciate our time and look forward to our future to one day grow old together… lol unless you ask our kids and according to them we already are 😉

Here’s to many more years together and many more anniversary celebrations of the dah we met and our wedding anniversary. Love you baby!

A walk in the park

The kids love exploring and it did not take much direction or encouragement to get them to sit up on this big rock… just patience 😉 Love them and love that my hubby and I spent this today together with our babies and other family.

11 years ago today, hubby and I became a couple.

Beach season has begun!

Our kids are very much like their mama. As soon as I could get in the water at the cottage I did. The weather was gorgeous there, water wasn’t the warmest but it wasn’t as cold as it has been in many past years.

I love that this family vacation cottage is being shared with my children amd family 🙂

Your Life As Art Photography by Pam

Artist & Intuitive | Pamela Zmija

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