Reflection

This week was a small milestone in our life, our baby turning 4!

I can’t help but be nostalgic. Think of how our dreams of parenthood began with such dissapointment and then with less than 18months we not only had our son, we then had our daughter.

During my life I have been blessed with so much, feel real love and have faced any challenges fearless. This past week bringing back these nostalgic feelings for me has not only reminded me just how blessed I truly am to have the family I always dreamed of having, but also for pushing through any fear and over coming the challenge.

One of these fears was when I had our daughter, throughout both of my pregnancies was a fear to me that I faced everyday, being in pain everyday during both, but also after being in labour with our son and then suddenly running into trouble and long story short ending up having an emergency c-secion. Suffice to say that when I went into labour with our daughter, not even 18mths later, I was scared! BUT I was SO determined that I was going to do it. In my heart I knew something was wrong when I was in labour with our son, I kept looking at my husband and saying ‘we have to do a c-secion its not going to happen’ and the ultimate fear of finally getting pregnant and what-if’s that could come from birth complications. While in labour with our daughter I faced that fear and it was the most amazing thing ever to experience a successful VBAC!

Its not a matter for me of “facing a fear” its naming that “fear” and seeing it as a small challenge, a speed bump really. For me anything to do with a challenge just gets me more determined, more focused and ready to come face to face. Perhaps its being blessed with the red hair and the strong personality to go with it.

The only fear in life we should ever have is thinking of what could happen if we didn’t stand up for ourselves. Always believe and stand true.

Daddy + Kids

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I love my husband.

I love him more when I see him like this with our kids. Its always so amazingly powerful seeing this man I met, unexpectedly I might add one evening in the US at a Hooters Car Race lol… who is such a man but deep down is all heart and his family means the absolute most!

That’s what this photo means is just that and more. Helping his daughter, son and neice go through M’s toys, this one being her barbie, awesome!

I fall in love with him more and more each day, sure not everyday is perfect but ironically since the weekend after my surgery, once I was truly comfortable we have not fought once – nope! it is possible and omg feels amazing. He truly is a dedicated hard working and full of love husband and father. Once in a while needs his wife’s direction – hey that’s to be expected right haha, such an amazing feeling. On days I may let things get to me he is there 100% to remind me of the many amazing reasons I have to smile and also why he loves me, and falls more in love everyday!

A week later

Exactly a week ago the kids and I were out playing in the snow while daddy was out doing a no heat call… This Sunday we enjoyed the beautiful sunshine outside and had a small campfire! Such beautiful sunshine!!!

Proud parents

Together we made our children, together we gave them life. Together we teach them right and wrong. Together we enjoy the moments of their growth. Together we walk hand in hand. Together towards our future.

Birthday girl

Our sweet birthday girl! She warms all of our hearts! SO proud to be her mama 🙂

She’s 4!!!

Every year I do photos with the kids for their birthday. The last couple years we’ve done the pictures with their balloons!

Family celebration with our lil girl!

We had a nice family celebration with our birthday girl the day of her birthday – we are all SO excited for her party tomorrow!!!

Yes our kids LOVE dancing!~ Its a regular thing in this house hehe. They were thrilled when mommy wanted to take pictures of them 😉

Its been Happy Birthday week here in this household, being a princess its the way its meant to be I suppose haha. She truly has, since the moment we found out I was pregnant with her, been amazing us, such a surprise blessing that we honestly couldn’t have asked for to happen in any better way.

Every day both our kids continue to remind us just how much we have to be thankful for. Most of all, that good things do come to those who wait. I am so very blessed to be their mama.

Happy Birthday Princess !

 

Happy Birthday to our Princess!

It is almost hard to believe just how much time has passed. The day our daughter was born and our family became complete.

I remember each of our children’s birth story’s like they were yesterday. With our Mady labour was nothing like Cars, contractions began while I was at the hospital in Guelph, waiting for my stress test. Oh and I was alone. My exact words to hubby, nothing will happen, even if he “helps” me along I will be fine. Of course hubby did know otherwise, but was not about to disagree with his very pregnant (red headed) wife.

I had went to my Doctor appointment that Thursday, the Doctor had my c-section scheduled for the following Monday, he asked if I wanted him to “help” me go into labour and see how things progress naturally to have a VBAC. He then sent me over to have a stress test at the Guelph General. My stress test showed baby was doing great and that I was having mild contractions. I got into the car and headed home and thats when it hit and hard!

Oh and I forgot to mention my poor mom had been diagnosed with Shingles and could not come near me OR the kids… thank god my sister was in college and could skip classes if we needed her.

I will never forget my drive home, on the phone with my husband off and on the entire way home, crying, in so much pain but persevering to get myself home to him and my son. Crazy I know. Something about redheads and being stubborn… haha! I got home and my sister rushed home from KW to stay with our son. Contractions continued but like I said were nothing like when I was in labour with Carson, with him it was horrible back labour. Around 11pm that night when contractions were still about the same I had a shower, the contractions stopped, I felt defeated haha I was ready to do this and now. However they slowly started up again. Around midnight I finally called the hospital and described what I was going through, to then learn that labour could be totally different with each child… hmmm perhaps we shouldn’t have dropped out of pre-natal classes!

So off to Guelph we went, thankfully they werent as busy as they were when Carson was born and I was admitted. I laboured through the night until I finally began hard labour around 3am, once again the epidural did not work (same as with Cars) and I felt everything… and of course remember it all too.

I will never forget seeing her after she was born – again something that is engraved into my memory of both children! Looking up at my husband and him saying to me “you did it shes here!~” SO amazing.

We are SO excited to truly celebrate our little princess this weekend … however on her birthday we had our very own celebration with our little family ❤

Your Life As Art Photography by Pam

Artist & Intuitive | Pamela Zmija

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