The Smoothie

I was “that” person… nope do not like smoothies, will not eat them, not going to try, hard no.

Last week, I realized we had berries in the fridge that needed to be eaten… knowing they weren’t fresh like a few days prior I thought of a nice summer evening strawberry daiquiri type drink.

It was so friggin good! We ended up having them a few times ✌

This evening while getting things ready for dinner, I was feeling quite emotional over something that a loved one experienced. As I was preparing dinner, I thought more than once just scrap this and make a smoothie (also what I had for lunch). I was already in full prep mode, so it continued moving forward. However what I was reminded of was what Holistic Nutritionalist, Laura Bourne said in one of her videos in the last two weeks. She was speaking about how she was fired up inside, but knew because of how she was feeling, the smoothie would support her body and digestion best feeling that way emotionally. In this moment, tonight, I got it completely.

Ease and nutrition. No overthinking. Put in what you like.

We have been using frozen strawberries and blue berries, water, the doTERRA Greens, Fiber and Protein mixes! Not only are they delicious, they are filling and hydrating! Perfect for a warm summer day!!!

A Radical Awakening

This pretty much sums up the last year + of my life, but honestly for sure the past 10 years.

As a young, newly married woman wanting to start a family. I wanted nothing more than to be a mama, but also enjoy that balance between being a working mama who still has time for her.

It’s a very real shift making this happen. When my kids were young, it was tough. So tough, emotionally. I just want to put it out there, it’s NOT a competition, with anyone. I would tell my 25 yr old self that. What have I learned being a mama…

Our Gut Health and Trauma

Don’t be ashamed of your trauma. I really enjoy listening to podcasts (aka you tube videos) while working or doing housework. It totally helps pass the time, I am SO much more productive and learning all the while ;)

This was one of my video’s from today. I found it truly inspiring about the importance of eating real food, ditching processed “convenience” foods and actually knowing what you are putting in your body and why or how it could be shifting your mental and physical health!

Details from Marie Forleo’s show notes:

Trauma affects EVERYONE. From war-torn nations to quiet suburbs, the effects of traumatic events are the same, and they’re heartbreaking. The silver lining? Healing from trauma is not only possible, you can become a kinder, more connected, and resilient person because of it. Dr. James Gordon will show you how. In this MarieTV, Dr. Gordon explains how everything from injury, illness, divorce, or losing a loved one, to the extended stress and uncertainty of living through a global pandemic, can trigger a trauma-response. You’ll learn how trauma affects your brain and body, five symptoms you might be experiencing right now, plus four simple practices to reverse the stress response and heal your trauma — for good. Dr. Gordon is a Harvard-educated psychiatrist, former researcher at the National Institute of Mental Health and chair of the White House Commission on Complementary and Alternative Medicine Policy. He’s spent the past five decades working to help us all learn how to heal trauma and turn it into post-traumatic growth. He’s written for countless publications like “The New York Times,” “The Washington Post,” and “The Atlantic,” and has authored ten books, including Marie’s personal favorite, “Transforming Trauma.” “Trauma will come to everyone sooner or later,” says Dr. Gordon. Watch this episode now to equip yourself with proven tools for healing — so you’re ready when it does. #MarieTV #MarieTVInterviews #TransformingTrauma

Good Night | May 2021

As this month comes to an end I spent some time this evening reflecting.

Mostly on who I am. Beyond my “normal roles” of wife, mom, business woman…

Purposely stepping back from electronic usage. The eye doctor check up and ability to actually see without strain and discomfort has been a beautiful reminder to be grateful but also always trust your inner knowing.

This month has energetically been challenging. In so many ways. The month felt heavy as soon as it started. Unfortunately as it went on, we encountered more challenges that we could not have imagined…

Once I got my husband home mid-week last week and we got settled into our new routine for this time being, I literally felt the exhaustion hit me – hard! I slept a LOT on Saturday. Ive processed alot, have sat in silence. I also took out a big distraction, as much as I truly do enjoy Instagram… “social media” isn’t “social” at all. Its isolating. Don’t get me wrong, it can FEEL social… but in reality it really is not. Its simply consuming our minds with a lot of “stuff” that we maybe do not need.

So this past weekend, I unplugged and it was great!

You know why… because social media is not what I would call an ally. Especially if you are emotionally charged. We were rocked back in October. That was when it hit me PTSD is a very real thing and it can hit you when you are least expecting it. It reared its ugly head again back in October after my husbands accident.

Truthfully. What I find hard, might be easier for someone else, just like what I find easy, might be hard for someone or our “hard” and “challenging” times may be like nothing to someone else. What matters is how I am feeling in the moment, or if it was for you, how you are feeling in the moment. No one can tell you how you should or shouldn’t feel, that’s simply not realistic.

Much like, every bit of our individual lives does not need to be publicly shared. I truly am grateful for my blog – Ive got some fun plans to freshen up my website with things better organized and relevant to ME! To also set an example for our kids. Taking a step back into my true self… who I am before any of my “labels” of Wife, Mom, Office Administrator…

Which is coming more into alignment every single day. I looked over and saw this sunset, where our dog was laying and it was just the perfect image for this post… Especially as I pull myself back into alignment and embrace. All in divine timing.

Good Night May – The energy for June feel’s bright and beautiful! <3

The importance to me of living an authentic life.

Going With The Flow

We have been reminded, in a strong way, that if you feel something isn’t right, believe yourself 100%. Even if no one else believes you!

Discernment and truly advocating for yourselves and your loved ones is crucial, for proper mental and physical health.

This is a time of healing, in so many ways. For all of us.

I have been taking care of myself, much more emotionally and for my mental health, than physical health. It’s ok to take a break, to be aware of what you need to feel and release to gain strength again.

As A Mother | I will stand for what is right

A conscious decision to forever alter your body and life.

Someone who was once a girl, becomes a woman, who then chooses to become a mother is already making decisions based on her future. For not only herself and her mental and physical health, but also for her child. This begins even before getting pregnant, before giving birth, before raising the child to adulthood.

This begins when the decision is made. A piece of your heart will forever exist out side of your body. You have the incredible honor of raising that child from birth to 18, giving them a foundation in life, guiding them to make informed and educated decisions, encouraging them to honor themselves, their mind and body.

As a mother trying to bring her child into this world, the doctor asked me… what do you want to do? Why? Because this is my child to watch over, my child to raise, my child to empower. Isn’t that the role we took on as their parents ?

Whatever your choice is – that is  your’s to responsibly make. No one should ever feel coerced into doing anything. No child should also be irresponsibly given “permission” by a government entity that they can make a life altering decision when they are not even legally allowed to vote, drink, buy lottery, a CHILD does not understand the potential repercussions. For the love of all things my doctors in my 20’s did not explain to me the repercussions of medications I was on, and able to stop.

This is not ok.
As a mother we must stand for our children’s rights and NOT be ok with children being  bribed with ice cream to take a shot that they have also said, that information does not have to be released to the parent.

As a mother, I loved my child before I conceived both of them. I endured months of infertility which emotionally and physically rocked me. I will stand for what is right. ✌

Look up Vaccine Choice Canada

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Light Up Your Saturday

What light’s you up?
What set’s your soul on fire?
Do that today. Whatever it is. However you can.

For me, I oil up and grab my camera. I am so thankful I did this morning!

Found a beautiful park, not only with an awesome variety of flowers and plants, also so many spring babies. Trusting, protective animals, smiling, friendly people. I would have never guessed I was in a city.

A city, that the mouse, that we apparently re-located this morning, will now be enjoying 😮!

Happy Saturday ✌
Whatever you are doing, no matter your life circumstances, or anything or anyone else in the world…

What do YOU need today.
What can YOU do for yourself?
Set your heart and soul on fire today and re-ignite that energy deep within. Clear out the cobwebs, cut the cords, fill yourself back up with self love and watch yourself rise.

If you are stuck and feel unsure of what your passion is… take even 5 minutes out in nature! 🥰

Always Trust Your Gut

Always trust your gut, even if a medical professional tells you otherwise.

This week, yes its only Thursday early morning – Ive been up since 5am, we have had two strong reminders of this. If I was honest, it was actually both in less than 24 hours.

Two years ago at my last eye appointment, I expressed concerns for my eye sight, that I was experiencing blurry and double vision. Two years ago when I told the eye Doctor this, his response when he asked me what I could see, was “you shouldn’t be seeing double right now” (during the test) and yet I was. It was left at that. Should I have persisted, yup I now know that without a doubt in my body. Tuesday evening I got my eyes checked, different Doctor, same clinic. I expressed my concerns to her and felt heard. I felt not only heard, I felt understood, I felt her concern for me to figure out what was going on. She found a solution. She explained the solution and what was going on. I felt relief, reassurance, Im not going crazy after being told I “shouldn’t be seeing double or have blurry vision”. I am grateful.

I blogged previously about adults asking questions – think of kids, they do this all.the.time. Adults need to do this more and without a doubt, trust their gut feeling. Last Monday my husband came home from the hospital. I will preface this with my gratitude for having a hospital in town, which is capable of performing a lot of services and thankfully has not been overwhelmed anytime we or a family member has been there. When he told me the Doctor said the x-ray was good and to take anti-inflammatories and get a compression sock, it was me saying WTF – but WHY!? WHY is your ankle and leg swollen. WHY are you having pain. Sadly, I know the misinformation that can happen in health care from my own health experience. So I called last week and made an appointment with his surgeon.

To be honest, I am still processing what we were told yesterday and what this will mean. One of my co-workers reminded me the other day (before the surgeon appt) that it could have been so much worse, he was right, hearing that hit my heart hard. I also cannot deny how I feel and allow myself to process through this.

He was told there was a hardware fracture. When I think of a fracture, I think of something still in place but maybe a hairline crack or something. No this hardware was clearly broke. Very clearly broke. So clear that we could both see it across the doctors office. Ok so it was 5 feet away, but that’s the size of the office ;) Not only does the hardware on one side of his leg have to come out and be re-done, it may also mean taking bone from his hip to help reinforce the ankle/leg where the surgeon doesn’t feel the bone is healing. The surgeon also said do not take the anti-inflammatories. Which he hadn’t been taking since late last week anyway.

It took a week to find out there was a fracture after being told go home, take anti-inflammatories and wear a compression sock. A FUCKING WEEK. A week of walking on it, going to physio and living in pain, feeling so confused because it didn’t make sense. A nose dive in mental health. For both of us.

Why am I sharing this. ALWAYS TRUST YOUR GUT.

Just because a medical professional tells you something, that does not mean that’s the only absolute truth. If you feel something is wrong – LISTEN TO YOURSELF. Listen to HOW you feel. Do not let anyone tell you how you should feel.

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