Finding Safety in Breath: Overcoming Life’s Challenges

Life allows us to make decisions and plans. However, if we do not deeply listen to our body, we may hit roadblocks. These roadblocks are ones we previously wouldn’t have encountered. Grief can be interesting in the body. How you feel, what you feel, the when you have zero control over, how you support yourself is key.

Friday evening, after I had fallen asleep, I woke not long later. I knew I was in trouble. I couldn’t breathe. My husband was by my side, thank god. He was able to get me walking. I was eventually able to breathe before everything inside of my stomach shot out with little to no warning.

That next morning before even getting out of bed, I listened to a couple of meditations. They helped me re-frame my mind. I needed to get out of that fear-based thinking that felt so scary for me.

My day was spent on the couch. That was completely ok. It was wet and rainy outside. It was dreary, cold, and so very damp. I looked out the front window this morning. I saw the single tulip in our smaller garden. I remembered my desire to capture it. Then, I remembered it had rained…

Macro Beauty!

This morning I also remembered the Breathing Challenge I had joined in May, yet hadn’t started yet. So I pulled out my head phones and pressed play on the first video.

Breath work – “It gets to feel safe to be here”, and “I am ok and I am safe”

Exactly what my body needed… to reassure that I am safe in my body.

I am ok, I am safe.

It was a very scary experience for me. I am grateful my husband was by my side. He took care of me. I am grateful I expanded my energy to embrace the rainy day beauty outside. I pushed myself beyond the scariness. I know it’s okay to trust and to be in full trust knowing I am okay. I am safe.

I felt much better on Sunday, however Saturday was spent embraced within comfort, hydration and nourishment of food for me. It felt like a reset. I experienced a deep scare when I realized I couldn’t breathe in that moment. I was internally trying to keep myself calm.

An opportunity to get curious, to BE curious and listen close to what my body communicates to me. Its becoming clearer.