Happy Birthday to our little man!

We spent last weekend with family and this weekend with his friends celebrating our little man’s birthday! We love sharing their and our special days with our family and friends!

He continues to amaze us with his talents, knowledge and most of all his personality and his absolute love for his family, pets and friends. Any days that may be challenging, his personality and sweets certainly make up for any mommy frustrations I may feel 😉 We’re human of course! Any moments I may have my mommy frustrations, I take my own time out, and fall in love with the kids all over again.

Little man (and sis) with his Daddy, his Grandad and his Great-Grandad!
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Yup this truly is HIM! LOL
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Patiently waiting for cake… or?
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The proud parents!!!
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The tradition continues… my first “money birthday cake” LOL! Gram was proud and no one’s face went into the cake either 😉
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He was very eager to cut more pieces even though he didn’t want more ha!
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Im not much of a baker – heck Im not a baker. However since we’ve gotten settled here Ive really put an effort into our kids birthday cakes… they are nothing special, I am super critical of them but my kids have LOVED them! Before I had this together, little man saw the cupcakes and was all “Ugh mom no cake???” … he went out to play and came in to see this and said “WOW thats awesome” … melt.my.heart ❤
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SO thankful to lil man’s auntie Erin… I found all these decorations online for his hockey party and to avoid crazy shipping costs she was able to pick them up for me – ah the parents (us included) weren’t all too keen on her “extra” she picked up … NHL whistles for the kids but they loved them!
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I LOVE this shot of the boys… last year it was a pirate party, this year hockey!
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Pinata time!!!
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What a way to end his day of celebrations than at the PATS game with his best bud 🙂 oh and his sis too 😉
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PCOS Awareness Month… Lets break the silence!

Ive become more comfortable and open with the illnesses I have. I am finally at the point in my life with my health that I know its a part of me, a part of who I am, its something that unfortunately I am going to be living with everyday for the rest of my life. There will be good days, there will be bad days, I just need to take it day, by day!

PCOS - fight like a girlDo you know what PCOS is? I’ll tell you…

Just click here to read about Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome PCOS

So many women have this illness. It is nothing to be ashamed of. It is not our fault. PCOS needs to be known, needs to be talked about.

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Here are a few of the symptoms of PCOS (from their website)

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pcos fightWhat are the symptoms of PCOS?

The symptoms of PCOS can vary from woman to woman. Some of the symptoms of PCOS include:

  • Infertility (not able to get pregnant) because of not ovulating. In fact, PCOS is the most common cause of female infertility.
  • Infrequent, absent, and/or irregular menstrual periods
  • Hirsutism (HER-suh-tiz-um) — increased hair growth on the face, chest, stomach, back, thumbs, or toes
  • Cysts on the ovaries
  • Acne, oily skin, or dandruff
  • Weight gain or obesity, usually with extra weight around the waist
  • Male-pattern baldness or thinning hair
  • Patches of skin on the neck, arms, breasts, or thighs that are thick and dark brown or black
  • Skin tags — excess flaps of skin in the armpits or neck area
  • Pelvic pain
  • Anxiety or depression
  • Sleep apnea — when breathing stops for short periods of time while asleep

    PCOS

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My Story…

The bare bones gist of it. I suffered, no suffer,  from not all, but many symptoms on the list above.

Married in September 2004. Began gaining weight, crazy cycles etc after going off the birth control pill. Mid July diagnosed with Hypothyroidism and PCOS. Underwent months of tests, ultrasounds, blood work, medication, more tests, ultrasounds, bloodwork… 16 months later get the news we were pregnant.

Thrilled with our new son, I was somewhat ignorant when it came to my health and hoped my illness (which at the time I didnt see as an “illness”) would just ‘go away’.

Little man was 6mths old, tests began again for cycle issues, monthly and at 9.5 months old… “You’re pregnant!” Yikes… my body was very messed up, however it did something right that month after literally months without a cycle or any normalcy.

I had very mixed emotions. I had a 10 month old and was pregnant with our 2nd – we only planned on 2 children so realistically this was scary, yet so very amazing.

Baby girl was born and our family was complete.

You would think I would have by then learned this is life long and I need to educate myself and reach out. Nope.

I was just as ashamed and hurt as I was the day my family doctor told me I needed to see a Reproductive Encronologist for Infertility… I was 23 years old… I had to see who for what!?!?

Life was crazy. After little man was born hubby began working at the family business, awesome as he was self employed with me doing his office accounting duties. I was very much in favour of living a more simplified life, especially since I would be returning to work! Working with two littles was a challenge, but I love(d) my job and knew that as much as I wanted to be a mom, I also wanted to work. It was a challenge finding a balance and quite honestly I dont think I truly did until a few years ago.

I knew the ultimate choice was surgery. With two young kids this was difficult and so I again put my health on hold. Finally October 2011 I called my Gynecologist’s office to make an appointment. Brought on of course by crazy pelvis pain! I was lucky and by the end of November 2011 I was at the hospital and had the surgery. This truly was the best decision ever for my health and my family.

Unfortunately the pain has not been completely gone, nor does just with a hysterectomy take away PCOS. Although I am still having pain I would be a lot worse off had I not had the surgery.

As the pain was getting worse, off to the doctor again, already knowing what was wrong and ultimately how to “fix” it, more tests began. Confirmed my guesses and also how to deal. . . Low stress, eating right, pain management, exercise, low stress… and ultimately and most likely another surgery.

PCOS affects women in so many ways, mentally, emotionally and physically. Physical pain with young kids, a dog, household duties and a job is difficult.

Earlier this year I pulled the plug on my photography business. I took it back… for me. Photography was and is my passion. I couldn’t allow any stress to ruin what I began doing with so much love, excitement, passion. My outlet for my love of the arts. I have had so much fun capturing our life, our moments and the beauty around me since I made this decision. I have fell in love with photography all over again.

For someone who must stay low stress, being organized is HUGE! Both at work and at home.   I’m continuing to simplify our life, decluttering our home, organizing, purging, and it feels so good. This is my life, and I will make the best of it 🙂

Here’s a good read – 30 Interesting Facts About PCOS

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Mother Knows Best

One feeling while being pregnant I will never forget is worrying if I would “do it right”, if I would know what was the right thing to do, if the baby was ok, what I should do etc… My wonderful female relatives and friends with kids just said “you’ll know”…

Well they were right – mother does know best!

I know my kids better than anyone else – Im also finding even better than the Doctors.

Of course no disrespect to any doctors out there. I personally have not had the best of luck with doctors for my own health and also my children. You have to push and by push it means hard. I learned this myself going through my own issues years ago, pushing to get answers, pushing to find someone local and I did, myself.

I am very thankful for the health care system we have in Canada, we truly are lucky – very lucky!

However its times like this where the actions of a physician directly affect my child negatively…

After waiting well over 5mths for a referral to a pediatrician for our son, I found out his family doctor didn’t even send in the referral…

I literally held my breath I was so angry I did not know what to say, nicely, so I said nothing.

I questioned the nurse how this could happen, the response was he is busy and forgot.

… Silence …

Im  getting good at biting my tongue. I was beyond angry by now and could feel my blood boiling. I am thankful my son is healthy, I am thankful my son does not have any life threatening illness. However the reason for our request to see a pediatrician is still very important and a very valid concern for his well being.

 

 

The First Day of School | Back to school 2013!

Our babes headed back to school this morning…  a very gloomy, dark, dreary, rainy morning…  one very eager, the other slightly nervous – they both came home with only good things to say and loving every moment 🙂

We were two very happy parents!!!

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We can only give so many smiles mommy… lol OK give me the silly’s now! 😉
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… and off they go!

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Another year of reflection… Its who I am!

Each year on my birthday I reflect back on my life and where I am at.

Last year at this time, my kids were each a year younger, my littlest getting ready to start JK, I had just received a promotion at work and was settling into that position, a year into our new home I was finally beginning to feel settled.

What a difference a year makes… 🙂

I am so thankful for the people who are a part of my and our life. I am so very thankful for my own little family’s health and I pray that the upcoming year only brings wellness and good health to us all. Especially to a special family member who is beginning treatment for Cancer very soon. Life truly is too short, you never know what tomorrow will bring.

If I have learned anything in my life, especially these past couple years, its to be me, to enjoy what I want to, to spend time with those I love and who love me back, to experience life and all the amazing things it has to offer, to stop and look around, so many days I stop and look around my house, my yard, my life and think damn I am lucky. Im lucky because even though I have invisible illnesses, I am able to get up everyday, enjoy life and make the best of it, I am lucky because I have a husband, 2 children and 2 pets who I spend my life with and who love more than anything. I am lucky because I have both my parents in my life as well as a father in law, all who adore my children. I am lucky because I have a home, food on the table and I can enjoy the little things in life and capture it with my photography.

I SO am lucky to have the family and friends I do have in my life, this past year we’ve spent some amazing times together! Life is very much about the people around me and the experienced we have.

One thing I strive to teach my kids everyday is that money does not buy happiness. Although almost everything in life does come with a cost, to spend time together does not have to be extravagant or over the top. Its the experience. Another reason why I LOVE family and friend time – especially at the cottage… much like my own childhood with a cottage full, good food, awesome company and the beach!

Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens.

-John Homer Miller

If anything its these experiences and time together that really have made my own life, relationships and most importantly my marriage stronger. For so many years there were obstacles, some my own – especially with my own health, others with family and their health, raising two young kids close in age, my hubby working and going to school, its hard to allow yourself to catch up when emotionally SO much has rocked your mind.

It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent that survives. It is the one that is the most adaptable to change.

-Charles Darwin

I truly feel I am beginning the anniversary of my 29th birthday with a much clearer head and focused mind. 😉 Afterall… even if if one day or one moment turns out stressful, frustrating or bad – there is a whole new day coming!

I feel SO blessed for being able to spend this past weekend with some more people I love! Thank you for making my birthday even more special!

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The kids were playing mini photographers lol!
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Yes its my wine the boy is holding lol!
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LOVE these pics of mom and aunt Lori! xoxo
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It was a almost impossible to keep a straight face!

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Yup thats my sister 😉 and aunt! haha
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I LOVE this pic of my sis, mom and I! ❤ LOVE it!!! We had SO much fun!!! Memories… they are irreplaceable!

Things don’t go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be.

-Charles “Tremendous” Jones, Motivational Speaker and Author

Summer time with family and friends!

This summer we have spent a lot of time with our family and friends – its truly been awesome!

We all have some fantastic memories… some from last weekend 🙂

 

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The making of a sand mermaid !
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The dads and boys all playing the ball toss game…
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We are SO lucky to have such great family and friends in our life! Thankful for each and every one of them XOXOXO. That weekend was a true pre-birthday celebration!~

Its just not fair!!! Don’t live with regrets… live & love.

How many times has that come out of a child’s mouth… heck even as an adult I know Ive said it many times.

Well in the years hubs and I have known each other – this has become a much too common statement… for us – because you know what life isn’t fair at times. At times it does suck. At times we must remind ourselves that we are strong and given only what we can handle – what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger… right?!

At times I seriously do not know… what I do know is yes at times “its just not fair”…

Hubs and I have dealt with alot in these years together , its certainly been trying – very trying – at times on our marriage, however it has made us stronger. In the 12 yrs we’ve been together Im really not sure we’ve had a year without illness or death in either sides of our family. Seriously enough already. Of course I do realize some people deal with illness and death everyday, within their own family, some children as well – which is why I use the statement “its not fair” lightly…

Lets face it everyone is living their own story, we never know what the next page will bring or the ups and downs we may face. What I do know – now more than ever is that we CAN do this together – we CAN face all of these heart breaking obstacles and come out – a little bent, but not broken (thanks Pink!).

This past weekend we received heart breaking news about a close family member… someone who has had their share of health related issues for many years and who was finally given a true 2nd chance at life… my heart breaks for this person and for our family. I pray they are able to be strong… for two very important reasons. I pray that we are strong.

Once again in these 12 years we’ve been together its another reminder of just how short life is… about how important it is to live and love life including those around you. Those very important people, family and friends in our life who we love so dearly. That sometimes when it feels like the end, really its just the beginning of a whole new chapter. Do not live with regrets, do not wonder why. Live and love. Surround yourself with those who respect and love you. Plan for the future, while also living today.

Most importantly… TAKE PICTURES!

TAKE A LOT OF PICTURES… This truly is one regret I have of us not having hubby’s mom, my mother in law here with us now. I WISH I took more pictures – I wish I pushed for just a few smiles, I wish I didn’t say… later. Because we didn’t get a ‘later’ with her… Hubs moved back in with her and lived with her for the 4+ yrs before she passed, I feel so very lucky that I was also able to live there with her to truly get to know her. I know how much we enjoyed it, I know how much she enjoyed it, I have the memories… and they are just that memories. Although I was so comfortable with her and I loved taking photos… I didnt get ones I truly wish we had… after all we had our wedding coming up… she was SO excited to hear her son had “finally” popped the question – he was so excited showing her the ring before our trip where we got engaged… Then she got sick again, she never let on just how sick she was, hubs even asked her about moving up the wedding, she wouldn’t have it… I’ll never forget getting the call… 2 months before our wedding. Those photos I had on my list of ones I wanted – of hubby with her, of me with her, of us WITH her… they never happened and that is one thing I will never be able to truly be ok with.

So to all my family and friends – next time I suggest a group shot … suck it up and let me take it 😉 To all of you this past weekend… thanks for putting up with the 30 min impromptu photo shoot – thanks to mom for capturing the shots she did for me so I could be in them… And our friends who had to leave early… we still need our group shot! 😉

Some photos from last weekend… 😉

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Becker LOVES The Water! | Cottage Dog

The entire family loves the beach at the cottage… especially our boy Beck! I had a very hard time getting him out 😉

Celebrated World Photography Day … in my own backyard!

A few times this year Ive taken some time to walk around and truly take in the beauty of our own yard – flowers, grass, trees and yes even weeds – some are gorgeous! Last night in honour of World Photography Day, I did just that… wonder around and I was very pleased with the subjects I found to shoot!

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He’s a regular in my yard and by my side so I had to get some shots in of my boy 🙂
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We have Sunflowers!!! Who knew… hehe in the “weeds” at the back of the driveway, I also noticed our apple trees did have apples – not in the best of shape though! I really should make it a habit to walk our yard more often 😉
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I hope if you have a passion for photography you got out yesterday to honour the absolute beauty that comes with a photograph as well as the memories it holds!

Happy Shooting 🙂

World Photography Day Celebrated With A Date Night

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We were so lucky to celebrate world Photography say with a date night 🙂

Love having some time to ourselves 🙂 Even though we miss tye kids like crazy… feels so weird to be home without them!

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