With my health and regularly taking my supplements.
Life, life was my excuse and taking care of others. I took on the victim mentality and then it began twisting, are you worthy of this, why do you need this, do you deserve to feel good?
After being in pain for months, I had to put it to the test and after a week + I am thrilled to say its working!!!
What am I doing…
Journaling and Reading Daily
Meditating
VMG Vitamin & Mineral Drink + Omegas + Vitamin D Drops + MetaPWR Drop + Recharge Electrolytes + Zendocrine x2
Walking Daily
Protein Focus + Breakfast Meal Planning
Following the creative intuitive hits
There are a few other things I am working with and trying, Im excited to share more!
Sometimes it helps to see things from a different perspective, I read a quote yesterday that really shifted my alignment in ME.
Write the story, even if no one reads it. Take the photo, even if no one sees it. Sing the song, even if no one hears it. Explore, even if your company is the trees. a.b.
Even just looking at this photo is giving me a slight nauseous feeling, and this photo depicts exactly how quickly the water was moving and the nauseous feeling I had while standing on the bridge with the sheer volume of water from the spring thaw .
Even just 5 minute out in nature can feel so freeing to the mind!
‘Its been a week’, one sentence I would prefer shifting to, ‘What a week!’ with happiness and enthusiasm. When do I feel that way? When I feel good, when I am aligned with my body, I thrive.
This week although I had some lows, I set myself up for success, and failure. Everyone can fail, being successful or a failure is a ultimately the choice. I meal prepped some breakfast egg cups, I made sure to pack my breakfast every morning and take with me. I also made sure that I ate lunch everyday and keeping protein in mind, a healthy dinner.
I supported myself through a hiccup of ‘am I worthy of this’ … aka do I really need to spend this money on me – something that has been what Ive been consistently working on! Do I need this to feel better and live pain free?
Afterall the gynecologist’s solution was the birth control pill and/or pain pills regularly. I am not going back to that life.
I am worth it.
For a full week Ive been drinking my vitamin and mineral drink with additional vitamin D and Omega’s. I have also walked our dog everyday, one thing that I committed to for him and me – training. After 5 days straight of walking, he walked the best yet!
By the end of the week I was also sleeping better and even after an impromptu 2.5km walk, I experienced no pain or discomfort – so thats a big win!
After a successful breakfast morning week last week, I decided to change it up a bit and I am thrilled with the result! A full ham slice in the bottom of each muffin tin, first brush oil inside the muffin tin – I love coconut oil for this! Into the ham slice I added chopped onion, broccoli, pepper and feta cheese, then I put a whole raw egg on the top. Set the oven to 375 and baked for 20 min – they are perfect!
I also baked the sourdough bread that I had prepared the afternoon before and when the egg breakfast muffins were done, I also baked some protein chocolate chip muffins!
Fun fact, a couple weeks ago I made these muffins for the first time, I didnt know what I did “wrong”, they didn’t rise at all, rather were more dense – like some of the protein cookies Ive tried before. Last weekend when I made them, I realized I left out the baking powder. They certainly did rise, but also lost that doughy dense texture. Today when I made them, I added 1 extra scoop of protein powder and didn’t add in any baking powder – to prevent them from rising. I took a family recipe and ramped it up into the perfect quick grab and go protein bite! Approx 6 grams of protein per muffin.
So am I worth it? 10000% When you dial into yourself what you need and desire deeply, it flows with ease. Much like last night, knowing there wouldn’t be much parking space we car pooled with others to the local hockey game, as the game was nearing the end, it hit me, we were stuck there at the mercy of someone else until they were ready. Not that big of a deal, thankfully as our vehicle was about 2.5 kms away, it was a beautiful mild evening, I walked there in less than 20 min, I think less than 15. I proved something else to myself.
Along with journaling daily, everyday in the morning and most evenings. Reading a page from a couple books that Ive been reading all year a page a day as well as meditating – this is such a powerful practice!!!
The things in life that ARE meant for you – will come with ease. Be open to that and understand that we are all unique, what is meant for me isn’t for you, and thats OK!
The reality of grief and living life can sometimes hit you harder than you want and take you by surprise, in a sense.
As our week was leading up to a birthday celebration for our daughter, I could feel my energy having a bit harder time with things. Fully transparent, we had a full week leading up to it with being out of the house every single night. Not sure if this is a projector energy thing, however Ive definitely learned that I need my down time to recharge.
The day came for us to celebrate her and so did some really big emotions. Like hit driving home and massive alligator size tears falling. Everything came together beautifully. Honestly I was also worried of how our pup would behave with everyone over, this winter was one that he didn’t see many extras and he did wonderful! The evening pulled together beautifully for our girl.
Its incredible how things unfold and flow in and out of our lives, the less resistance we have the better the flow. The other day, I felt completely out of the flow, I had even meal prepped for my day, so that everything would flow perfectly. We had left over pasta so I used that to make a pasta salad with tuna, a yummy dressing, carrots and celery. As I was making it, I clearly heard – why are you adding in tuna when you know its going to make you feel off… I ignored that warning. After consuming the tuna salad, I knew it was against my better judgement of what my intuition had warned. Within the afternoon my energy felt more drained, exhausted actually, I could feel a headache coming on and just the overwhelming feeling of blah!
I got home from work and exactly what I wanted to do was lay on the couch and just cry and have myself a little pity party. Well, after I promised my dog a walk each day after work now that the nice weather is here, I couldn’t go back on my promise to him! With the excitement in his eyes and eagerness to go out with mom. I did it, I cried, he walked, we both worked on training – in more ways than one. When I got home, my husband had arrived and our son was heading out. Life chapters are interesting, which I also feel I am still adjusting with.
As I was telling my husband about how I was feeling, he grabbed a can and looked up the ingredients, simple – Tuna, Water and Sea Salt – which confused me more, WHY does it make me feel like this every time I eat it? What is interesting is my husband googled Selenium which 1/2 a can is 69% of your daily intake. High selenium can cause skin rash, nausea, diarrhea, fatigue, irritability and nervous system abnormalities – interesting right!? I find all of these signs fascinating as I was experiencing feeling slightly nauseous, extremely fatigued, irritable and my nervous system was off. What is interesting, is this may not even affect anyone else like it does me, our bodies are so unique and different.
The more aware I am with my health and body, the better equipped I am able to handle the grief waves. When hit with one, when feeling down, its much worse than being hit with one and feeling much higher vibe. Eating and drinking foods that align with that, is key!
The other night, which ended up being our last local ride on our snowmobiles on the local trails. We found an end of the season deal on new helmets. As ours were around 8 years old it was time to upgrade – especially for me, when it means being able to see better!
When they arrived on Monday, I knew my husband would want to try them out. Monday evening being our *only* evening at home after a busy weekend, my energy was feeling the strain. So I acknowledged that and named it. I was honest with my husband and it felt better voicing it, allowing the energy out of my body. This was to be my only night at home, however yes lets go.
As I was leading us through the one bush trail, I rounded the corner into the open field, it always feels so freeing riding through nature, the snowmobile trails go where roads can’t and its so beautiful. I was leaning into this ride, knowing it could be our last and enjoying the unobstructed view through my new helmet.
As I came around the corner, I saw something on the left side of the trail in the open field. I wondered, could that be a big snow ball, yet at the same time I also said to myself, it looks more square, it doesn’t look like a snowball?
I rode beside it, and got just past when I realized, nope not a snow ball, it was a big beautiful white Owl sitting in the snow! I stopped once I realized what this was and looked behind to see if my husband was coming, as I turned the big beautiful bird sat for a moment, before opening its big wings and flying off into the night sky.
Being a spiritual girl, I knew this owl held meaning for me to see it. What are the chances that it was exactly where I would be passing on a night I technically wasn’t supposed to be out. Many of these spiritual meanings, hold tight to my heart.
Especially when our ride began with angel numbers… something within told me to grab this shot, it wasn’t even 15 minutes later I saw the Owl.
When you pay attention to the signs, it can be magical! 888 – Balance… everything is falling into place as its meant to be.
It can be challenging to allow yourself to open up to energy, especially after heartache. However as I continue learning, even through heartache, its ok to do things for you and to allow yourself to find that new balance and choose happy.
We enjoyed a nice ride out in nature, a balance for me to find being a bit later in the evening after dealing with an unexpected emergency, which could have been worse than it was, thankfully. An energy re-balance, however. Knowing that things will hit us beyond our control and its when we learn to flow with this, that we can find and develop our power.
As we were on our test drive with our new helmets, I could feel my sensitivities heightening, I could feel my emotions also ramping up. When we stopped and my husband asked how I was doing, I began to get emotional. Anyone who knows me, knows I wear glasses, so part of this new helmet test was to see how it felt to ride with my glasses – I like to ensure I have a back up should a contact go sideways. Its ok to voice how you feel, its ok to say Thank you and Im sorry in the same sentence. With some adjustments, I know my riding in the next season will be comfortable!
As I embrace this up coming weekend, I am grateful for some down time after a busy on the go week – a lot of fun and excitement – however I am also proud of myself for honoring ME and my energy and voicing this week how challenging its felt for me to not have any evenings at home, until Friday. Naming it, bringing it – how Im feeling, to the light also helps dissipate the energy to better balance!
When we lean in to these spiritual signs, our world can open up in beautiful ways.
Why photography + snowmobiling ? The mere peace that fills my body when I look at this image of these trees on the trail. The beauty of nature and how unique each trail is as you immerse yourself within nature on the snowmobile! The clean white snow, the peace of being out in the fresh, crisp air 😍
Don’t be afraid to combine passions, safely of course 😉
My FAV travel combo on the Sled is my Canon RP + RF 24-240 lens it’s an incredible combination for lifestyle and landscape on the go photography!
Sometimes when we switch up our norm, we push the boundaries of our self and push to the next level. Earlier today my husband and I got out for a snowmobile ride to fill my creative desire! Yes with my camera 😉
I ride with bags on my handlebars and find I stay much warmer with them on. Today as we prepared to leave, I got my camera ready within my bag and decided to not put my gloves on, rather I put them in my back bag just in case. I rode for 1.5 hours with my hands in and out of my handlebar bags for that entire time and it was the BEST and most confident of my rides yet. Even on a cold, blustery bright sunny day. The cold air crept down my neck, it was worth it. I just love capturing us, our life and the absolute beauty of nature.
I am continually blown away the more I lean in and trust my intuition. Had I voiced to someone, on a cold day like today that I am not going to wear gloves so that I can easily access my camera and take photos along the ride – my husband was behind me 95% of the time watching for people behind me as I did make a lot of stops – they would have called me crazy. I not only love the images I captured on the Mount Forest Drifters trails, I had a great time riding, the BEST this season actually!
Interestingly enough, riding without gloves can be mastered in the powder! Not me in the photo, the husband can play much more than I 🤣 Before I knew it I was riding confidently through (this was on the way back) and when my brain realized what we were riding through, Id normally give in to that haunted voice, with fear right beside, we dont ride like he or she can you need to slow or ask for help… I talked her down and continued riding confidently… without gloves and with my handlebar bags on! Be you and never be afraid to ✨️
Your Life As Art takes on a beautiful new meaning when you lean into what that is you YOU!
Because it will be vastly different than anyone else, and that is the beauty!
When we try to push ourselves into boxes to be like someone else, it removes our authenticity completely and clogs up the energy resources in our body. Visualize a damn in a river.
These are just a few of my tools, ones that I am reintegration to my life with passion and purpose. Alongside my oils, that are so life giving when remembering to use them.
This image above filled the sky on Wednesday evening as we headed to our daughters hockey game. Resembles a beautiful big angel wing amongst the beautiful sunset!
The energy before the new moon was almost volatile at times, shifty energy! As I read a post last night, this is the beginning of new. Which feels in such alignment, with March coming in tomorrow and eventually bringing spring! Someone I follow on Instagram is beautifully knowledgeable of not only the moons but astrology in general and I always find her posts incredibly educating and eye opening as well!
The beauty of the snow… Truly grateful to have a REAL winter again! Although it kinda threw a wrench in everything for a good 3-4 weeks while it ALL came down. It makes me very happy that after many years, we are finally having a traditional winter again – lets hope they are here to stay!
February 22, 2025 – around the corner from us to the right, if I had moved up a few more feet, I think the snow would peek over the top!
March 2014 – Below, on a road around the corner from us that used to be all season and is now for some unknown reason no winter maintenance… when two townships literally meet on the street…
I am grateful we leaned on trust and kept our snowmobiles after almost 3 winters with barely any snow, we are abundantly blessed this year. I am LOVING being back on the sled and truly into nature enjoying it all. Areas that during other seasons of the year are off bounds as farmers are using for their crops. Beautiful bushes and trails that sit until winter when they can be enjoyed in their fullest.
All images taken with my Canon RP + RF 24-240mm lens. This camera and lens combination is the perfect light weight option for any kind of travel. What I appreciate about this combo is when we are riding, it is extremely light to wear, very safe and when I am shooting on the go, it easily slips back into my sling bag as I am riding to protect the camera and lens from bouncing around. This is my smaller bag that I use and the RP + 24-240 lens fits perfect standing up with the other half to hold anything else I may need such as my wallet and phone etc.
Navigating my morning routine of what works for me, to be in the flow of life. I’ve chosen some very specific things to support me at this time and am learning on the way. This, journal is one piece of my mental health pie. In my Hockey Mom mug it has 1 drop of Turmeric, 1 drop if Tulsi and is a morning detox tea blend. As I sit comfy in my living room, the bright sunlight streaming through the windows, I am reminded, although we have faced deep heartache, healing from heavy emotions that compounded over the years is key and it’s not always linear, and that’s ok! Everyone’s journey is their own and the peace you find, may be from a different path, that’s ok! ✨️ Embrace the life YOU need to lead, live the life you yearn to receive and regardless of anyone else… choose you, choose peace, choose to be in the moment.
Last week I had an interesting conversation, it was one where we began talking about one thing and then branched off in various ways. During the conversation, the woman I was speaking with was telling a story and she said, I need to be transparent, I was not sure what to expect next. She then revealed to me that in her transparency, its to share that she did get 3 of the c-19 jabs as she believed what the government was telling everyone and public health’s push and wanted to do the “right” thing.
She went on to tell me that her day of reckoning was when someone close to them was diagnosed with a serious health issue, an issue that *could* be genetic and their family was all tested – negative. Upon further research… what does it come back to … the jab! I let her know that my family, for health reasons, decided to not get the jab. She stopped what she was doing and said omg girl, good for you! This is the first time Ive heard this, for years our family was judged, we didn’t do what we were supposed to. Even though it was hard, admittedly hard, some family wouldn’t interact with us and truthfully still haven’t, some friends dwindled away and we haven’t been invited back and our kids couldn’t play sports, we couldn’t go into an arena or a restaurant or anything they deemed you needed a “passport” for. What hurt was being laughed at that our family couldn’t enter a restaurant. Or being told “you have to get this”, no actually I don’t.
Sadly, Ive heard this much more recently, health issues that no one seems to know whats going on, doctors are “stumped” and don’t know… yet… they do know – especially if they are an ethical doctor. Do I regret not getting it, absolutely not. Do I hate what we went through, absolutely I do. Do I wish things were more normal about this and people were encouraged to do whats right for their own health – absolutely!
The more people speak up, the more this CAN be “normalized”. Regardless of whatever your choice was. Empowering people to make real choices that DO have an effect on their health and understanding that the government is not the one to do that for us.
The other day, I opened Instagram – to be fully transparent myself, during 2020-2024 I relied far too heavily on those “social” media platforms that really and truly merely sunk our mental health and increased addiction like feelings of needing to know what everyone is doing or whats happening or that there are people around. It was a wicked time in the world without individual issues and challenges – which merely intensified this.
What I am leaning into more is, Why… why do I feel drawn to open it, what is there for me to find, see or understand? Opening it with curiosity Ive found is MUCH better than opening with boredom or to “zone out” from a hectic day.
What I saw, was a beautiful bright coloured book – that ironically, the colours also match the 2 books and 1 journal I have for 2025… Dr Casey Means book GOOD ENERGY.
Truthfully, after loosing our dog Becker and then my brother both in 2024, my world was rocked even harder than the previous years. I haven’t been taking care of my health in the ways I know or had been in the past. Eating things that I know my body doesn’t like, will only make it worse which affects so many areas of my life mentally and physically.
But here’s the thing… we will always have various things going on in our lives, everyone is different in how we process what we go through. No one is immune from getting through lifes highs and lows, its learning to manage those waves and also understanding that EVERYONE faces these highs and lows in their life. When we are putting things in and on our body that doesn’t align with our bodies energy, it just makes these challenges – whether mental or physical – even harder!
Check out this podcast above, Casey is the author of Good Energy and as I am finding a wealth of information that aligns so much with my own body and health!
