There’s something deeply grounding about the rhythm of the water—the gentle pulse of waves lapping against the shore, the whispering breeze, and the effortless grace of seagulls drifting overhead. I recently spent time along the beach, camera in hand, capturing the serene beauty that unfolds when water meets sky.
Each photo in this series tells a quiet story.
Some images feature seagulls in mid-flight or standing still, their silhouettes etched against soft blue skies. Their presence adds a touch of movement to the stillness, a reminder of life in motion even in the calmest moments.
The water itself was peaceful that day— as the waves rolled in with a softness that made time feel slower. There was no urgency, no rush—just the lake breathing in and out. It was a perfect reminder to pause and appreciate the small, quiet moments.
I hope these images bring a sense of peace to you, just as they did to me while capturing them. Feel free to scroll through and let your mind drift with the tide.
Being an empath and highly sensitive, I felt incredibly drawn to go see a Medium. After my brothers death I was pulled to someone local to connect in.
What I received that evening, was so special. Not only did I receive some of the same messages – massive validation – he came through as pure peace. It was such a cool experience, like having a conversation with him again, through energy rather than him physically being here.
I know I still struggle with this. I could pick up the phone and call or text him anytime… as he told me, Pam don’t be sad, you can reach out Im always here. The tears flowed, they still flow as I write this and even think of him.
Yes, share my message, share my story too many people suffer and think they are alone he made clear to me. I knew in my heart, re-connecting with the brain injury group in town that he helped form, is the way. He knew people need help, more help than many get, that they need to have a sense of community and feeling involved and empowered in their own life to live in peace vs living in pain.
It was incredibly enlightening as she said a few things and my voice instantly said omg I got that same message. Validation… the validation I needed. I had connected energetically in with a family member who had passed a couple years prior to him. It was a very cool experience, but I wasn’t 100% confident I should trust all messages coming in from him… am I too close being his sibling, am I interpreting it correctly? One message she told me, I had received, just in different words, it all made complete sense.
As I was driving home, this was the sky, I had to pull over to capture this beauty.
Before my appointment, I set the intention, I am not going to cloud my mind – meaning I did not turn on the tv, music, or touch my phone. I walked into my room and wondered, should you be taking a crystal that could help absorb his energy that comes through? Then I recalled, no you have your bracelets on – one I created for our family members for Christmas after his passing of all of our birth stones. I then heard necklace… I thought to myself ok, my gold necklace? Does that absorb better than crystals would? I grabbed my journal and headed out to the living room to sit down and begin journaling my purpose for that night, I wrote down some questions I was hoping would come through – biggest – are you at peace. As I sat down, I looked down and suddenly my 444 gold bar necklace was sitting on the top of my chest. I only take this necklace off for some appointments, I had been at an appointment earlier that day – wow did my Osteo do some deep work… However I had been wearing my necklace all afternoon and into the evening at that point. I also regularly fiddle with it, the necklace was secure on my neck and clipped and yet… suddenly it was on my chest just laying there.
Many times the ego can interject, however with doing the work you will be able to recognize the difference between your ego and soul – when the soul speaks this is your truth. The ego likes to cause resistance, thinking it knows best. As I was sitting and journaling I asked… did you undo my necklace, and heard a very quick and confident yes. I have been making it known to the spirit world, I am open to connecting with my loved ones of my highest truth of love and compassion – be careful to not leave yourself open to all spirits to come through!
I highly recommend a Medium experience, its so very cool and filled with love. Yes it sucks he isn’t here with us physically, nothing I can change, however I can ask for the signs, I can meditate and connect in. I can be that mystic that loves all things energy and embraces it with open arms, so happily and filled with gratitude.
Trust your connections, trust your ability, trust that you can expand!
Do not stand By my grave, and weep. I am not there, I do not sleep— I am the thousand winds that blow I am the diamond glints in snow I am the sunlight on ripened grain, I am the gentle, autumn rain. As you awake with morning’s hush, I am the swift, up-flinging rush Of quiet birds in circling flight, I am the day transcending night. Do not stand By my grave, and cry— I am not there, I did not die.
As I was driving home last night, the sun was so bright in the sky, making its final decent of the evening. Following me home on my drive.
I am proud to be back at the Brain Injury Group in town, something I feel closer to as my one brother helped bring this group to town, knowing the imperative need for people with brain injuries to find community, a place where they can feel accepted no matter what.
I had to pull over to capture this … Its almost as if the sunray is reaching out and touching me – this was the first photo I took. The beam is coming directly to me <3
This morning I saw this message…
Emotionally its been challenging to walk back into the meetings, but at the same time, I knew how close to my brothers heart this group was and in wanting to do something in his honor – THIS is the outlet!
The message above by Brianna Wiest, hits the nail on the head perfectly.
This new life moving forward, does not physically include my one brother, he will always be with us spiritually, however never again physically which is a pain I am still learning to navigate through.
I have been through death before, sadly multiple times, too many Id like to count. Three sudden deaths prior to my brother, which rocked me in ways its hard to describe. Nothing will prepare you for someone to be in your life one day and then suddenly gone. Many times while grieving a lost loved one, you are suddenly faced with grieving living people as well. Those you thought were close, would be there but haven’t. Or even family members who do not think before speaking. I had a distant great aunt tell me, “I completely forgot about you girls, we remembered the boys…” after my brothers funeral, while smiling at me. Forgot my sister and I, who are literally the bookends of our family with the boys in the middle.
Its so true…
THE PEOPLE WHO ARE MEANT FOR YOU ARE GOING TO MEET YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE. YOU’RE GOING TO BUILD A NEW COMFORT ZONE AROUND THE THINGS THAT ACTUALLY MOVE YOU FORWARD. INSTEAD OF BEING LIKED, YOU’RE GOING TO BE LOVED. INSTEAD OF BEING UNDERSTOOD, YOU’RE GOING TO BE SEEN.
ALL YOU ARE GOING TO LOSE IS WHAT WAS BUILT FOR A PERSON YOU NO LONGER ARE <3
The people you are wondering why they haven’t showed up, you on your own path. It may feel heavy of what once was, why couldn’t they show up for me like I did for them. There are some people who simply cannot meet you where you now are. Release yourself of this, focus on your heart healing.
Much like me sitting and wishing my loved ones were still here, wont bring them back. Memories are forever, if anything his lose has re-ignited my passion to capture everything and anything with my camera. Find the alignment in your truth. Base your happiness on your own choices. We cannot control anyone or their actions. Release attachments – those who are meant to be will be! Without resistance or pressure.
One of my favourite images from the day, was the last one… the power within this is surreal!
Reminding me to BE THE CHANGE – Ive said for a very long time, no one else will save us, its up to each our individual selves. Much of the orchestrated world around us is the world stage, its not for our best interest, its for theirs.
The more we can BE living in our truth, the strongest we will be! Regardless who “won”, it was called early and those who have been led down the path, know the truth to their core.
Not everyone fell into line during the last L term where if you didn’t follow their rules you were literally banished from society.
My family was.
My family, after my years of health issues, chose to put HEALTH FIRST and in doing so, were banished. Kids had to stop playing sports, we couldn’t even enter an arena, movie theatre, restaurant, get on a plane or train if we wanted. Banished without “papers”.
Welcome to Canada
Where foreign people to our country have more rights, freedoms and tax payers dollars than the people who were born and raised here.
Its time to double down on what we KNOW WORKS.
Time to fall back in line with our soul.
For standing up for what we know is right. For the silent majority. Who will never be rocked like we were in 2020-2024 because now, now we know our truth to our core. We know what we can withstand and what we will never crumble for.
Thank you Canada for reminding us all of this.
Watch the strength rise… in ways they will not be ready for!
This afternoon I attended the Tree Trust Nature Walk and Local Market – mother nature did not disappoint! The sun was shining and it was absolutely beautiful outside.
Check out my shots from the afternoon. We learned about the various trees on Erin and her family’s property as well as making tinctures with them, the beautiful power of plants (I have been a lover for over 10 yrs now!) and truly being reminded that this is our background, this is all of our history and used to be the norm.
Check out the album of photos below! The heron nests were incredible to see as the big birds flew overhead, their shadows casting down on us as we immersed ourselves within the forest – the ultimate forest bath experience!
Ive selected a few of my favs to showcase here all others are in the album below – click there to view!
Click on the image below to view the Album of the 2025 Tree Trust Nature Walk!
I am so excited for this weather, to get out and capture natures new and renewed life! The growth after being dormant over the winter. The beautiful rich colours of early spring in nature.
When being in tune with nature, in tune with your own intuition you can better distinguish between soul speak and the ego putting up a wall. As I was was getting my camera ready in the morning, I said to myself, I should take my shoes and my boots – not knowing how the walk would be if it would be muddy or not. Knowing that my bogs could possibly cause me foot issues depending on how long the walk was. As I was leaving I remembered this, it then suddenly was decided you’re fine with the boots, just go. Listen to that voice, that one that gave me the heads up earlier, that one. She knew what was up LOL! It was worth it, I am in love with the images and it was such a profound experience, just minutes from home!
Earlier this week I was directed to a book, SIGNS – The Secret Language of the Universe by Laura Lynne Jackson. She knew this would be something for me… I opened a website to buy the book, I was about to hit purchase, then something held me back, something said… wait. As I was logged in to Spotify the next day, I saw that there was an audio book section and this book, included!
Truthfully I haven’t had great luck with reading and finishing books, listening however – helps shorten any task at hand !
I am a numbers person and have been for a long time. After our dog passed in May 2024 at one point, I looked up at the wall, not knowing there was a clock there or what time it was, 1:11. After making my brothers funeral arrangements with family, we got back to my parents place and as I was walking in the kitchen I looked at the time on the stove, 4:44.
As I was driving today, I saw 111 on a license plate coming towards me. A minute or so later another passed with 999.
The other night, I went to a networking event with a friend, we hadn’t seen each other in a bit so it was incredible to catch up. I was surprised to see another friend who I hadn’t seen in a very long time also at the event, ironically we had talked about a month ago, a chance happening one evening that brought us together. As soon as she saw my necklace, her eyes lit up, 444 is my number she told me.
The friend I went to the event with introduced me to a woman, quite successful and so refreshingly down to earth! As soon as she saw my necklace she also commented on it.
Its been a while since Ive been “out” at business connection evenings like that and I am so grateful I went, there was clearly a reason for me to be there and spirit was happy to affirm that for me!
I highly recommend this book – SIGNS, I also suggest listening when you have time for you, not at work, not with other people around, when you can BE with yourself. If you listen in the car and are still in the grief process, listen on the way home – it will pull on every single heart string and also remind, our loved ones may not be physically here, when we open to the signs, they are never far away XO
Never forget who divided Canadians Never forget who forced families apart Never forget who made us all question our sanity Never forget who introduced “papers” for access to public places Never forget who then introduced a digital tracking system to be able access to travel, access restaurants, sports complex or even movie theaters Never forget who raised the cost of living of everything, yet whose net worth also increased for themselves Never forget who forced children out of sports Never forget who blocked parents from entering schools Never forget who divided friendships Never forget those who put their health first, were put last Never forget who sends millions of $ to other countries while millions in Canada are suffering with mental and physical health Never forget who forced loved ones to die alone Never forget who used the medical system to divide and not allow families to be together Never forget who allowed the medical system to blatantly disrespect concerned family members Never forget who banned family members from loved ones in hospitals Never forget who caused a massive backlog in the medical system causing harm to millions health Never forget who cancelled Christmas Never forget who allowed children in elementary school to be manipulated to question their own sex and sexuality Never forget who thinks a child can decide to cut off their penis or vagina to become another sex Never forget who allows men to compete against biological women Never forget who allowed biological men in girls change rooms Never forget who banned healthy Canadians from traveling on planes and trains Never forget who banned healthy Canadians from leaving the country Never forget who encouraged people to rat on each other and turn their back on those who didn’t “follow the rules” Never forget who put your mental and physical health at risk Never forget who developed Carbon tax to “fight climate change” and solved it a mere 4 weeks before the 2025 election so it could suddenly be dropped Never forget who forced an experimental jab on the entire country if you wanted to keep your government job Never forget many places who are still mandating this jab in the medical field Never forget who overloaded the already failing medical system Never forget who thinks they have more autonomy over your body and how you feel Never forget who allowed big box stores to operate while shutting down as many small businesses they could Never forget who banned parents from children’s sports Never forget who does NOT know your body better than you Never forget the people who walked out of your life because the TV and Radio told them to. Never forget who took away the tax fitness credit for children Never forget who supports a tax system that taxes you on everything you earn, then everything you purchase to live and then everything you own when you die – if you have a safety deposit box I highly suggest you close it or the government profits on your precious family heirlooms today’s value tax Never forget who allows criminals to walk Never forget who caused a massive wave of dire mental health across the country with very little support for those in need Never forget who filled hotels and paid for refugees to come here for votes, yet turned their back on real Canadians paying to live here Never forget who took away your freedom Never forget who lied
Never forget who holds your worth Never forget the power of your own intuition Never forget that if people really loved you, they would never, ever turn their back – Ever!
Never forget that healing will take time, from all of this and if people chose and choose to continue blocking or staying at a distance in your life, has no reflection on you or your own personal choices. As someone who deeply respects when someone puts their own health before what anyone else tells them, this IS power in your own life. No one knows your body better than you, the more quiet you get, the more you listen, the more you learn. Relationships that have changed probably will never be the same. The effort to reach out, to try to include to make the effort, save your energy for those who truly want to BE in your life for you.
Never forget what the Liberals have done in the past 5 years especially!
Its been a process with many ups and downs. My reclaiming happened within 2021, 2022 it was MY space again. A room that I could retreat to and allow my creativity to flow and grow.
Our Healing Room, for our family.
Until it became the literal medical of that. The room, the massage table, the space, was used to organize and store medical supplies and wound care was happening either daily or every other day.
My space, although I could hold off on succombing to this for a while, it then became too much. The weight of what was expected from me. The worry, the resentment, the anger, the multitude of emotions and feelings being felt. The questions. Its very easy to sink into victim mentality, after 2 yrs + 3 surgeries of my husband, it felt like a personal, painful joke.
Of course as a wife and mom I would do anything for them.
Something has to give though and far too often, its the caregivers mental health.
My room, my space, became the ‘dumping ground’ again in a sense that it was just so emotionally overwhelming for me to be in there, it was merely used for storage and wound care. This made sense in the moment, ease for what we were living in and with at the time.
I knew this was something that is important to my own mental health. During those first few years of the turmoil, having this space – entirely to me for a full year – was life giving. As I was questioning myself the other day, HOW did you do …
I didn’t have the opportunity to THINK about what I needed to do or take care of. It was a matter of fact. However when I skim the surface for taking care of me, I truly get little benefit of this. I may be able to keep myself skimming the surface, staying afloat, however thats it.
This weekend, I took back that space, with still a bit of filing to do to finish organizing, the space feels fresh again, like me again. Honoring who I know I am and that my quirkiness and uniqueness is admired by some, possibly not by others and thats ok. The ying and yang of life, much like my zen den healing room! I am grateful for this space, I am grateful I had the opportunity to use it how I needed to. I am also grateful for the glaring spotlight of importance that even when it was a caregiving room, its deeply crucial for me to have this space for me, and thats ok!
Don’t leave yourself in the dark… lean in and honor your heart + soul!
Spring 2025, when the stakes come out of the snowmobile trails!
There’s nothing like a relaxing, yet productive day at home. Some meal planning for the week, slow start to the morning, delicious food, warm tea. I had the thought earlier we should go for a drive, I wanted to go out but also wanted to relax. Went out with the dog and felt the creative spark. All it took was a message to my husband, to take me on a photo tour! An hour driving back roads with my camera and then checking the trail where they removed pegs yesterday, picking up a bundle that fell out after some bumps lol! The forest bathing I needed! Being out in nature, or near water is so life giving for me. Capturing it with my camera intensifies that memory and feeling. Sundays at home, are always a day well spent, especially when I can get out with my camera. I had my Canon RP and the 24-240mm lens ready in my small bag so I grabbed that and we headed out!
The other day I was contemplating something, as a spiritual person I am more aware of universal signs and so I asked for a sign. I specifically asked my brother for a sign. I remember thinking to myself to be aware of what I may see, hear, smell, touch and suddenly I could smell his cologne. The irony is that our son wears the same. He was not home at the time. Trust me when I say it was quite the mind fuck smelling that smell, it stopped me in my tracks quite a few times.
I acknowledged the sign of the cologne smell, even to the fact that I stopped myself and said wait what day is it, he’s not here (our son)… which then pushed me to ask for a confirmation sign, ok I see this sign show me a signier sign. In all seriousness when you are spiritual and ask for a sign like this on a level like this, once I can get myself past this full trust spot, its purely magical.
The next sign showed up quick again, in the kitchen alone making food and I could feel something/someone touching near my left ear and on the back of my neck.
Believe it. Believe all the signs.
I have days that feel this magical, that I can talk to him and although I do not see him, its like we have this new spiritual relationship where when I DO stop and listen and watch for the signs he IS here with me.
Its really mind bending loosing someone so young, as much as it is real, it doesn’t feel real. Yet at the same time it can feel absolutely painful.
I feel much more comfortable pulled in, this weekend having the time and space to BE home has been heart filling. A break between the hockey/snowmobiling season – also known as winter, currently in the season of mud while we await the beauty of spring, I am reminded how rewarding being present can be.
The songs take over my heart, Ive been (finally) slathering on oils on me morning, afternoon and night, Im still doing the diffuser blends every single morning both at home and work, and part of my evening routine at home. Meal planning, ensuring that I am getting protein every morning – I was lacking on this before, I can see when shouldering the responsibility of care-giving for others, its natural to neglect our own needs, which doesn’t serve anyone else. Its now been over a month I have been consistently making my work week breakfasts on Sunday and have things prepped to grab and go, very protein rich! Making home made sour dough bread and experimenting with protein muffins.
No one can tell you how to heal, not everyone will even care if or how you heal, healing requires to go deep within, the deeper the more thorough the healing. Reaching for holistic options that support my heart, brain and energy body. Understanding that slipping back into food support is not the best option. Being a healing emotional eater, and aware of this.
Embracing all that makes me, taking photos of everything, regardless of what we are doing, its a memory worth capturing, with full gratitude. As heart wrenching as it felt to upload thousands of photos to our digital frame, the gratitude that pours out of my heart seeing all of those images is profound.
