I began this post, three weeks ago with just a title. “Burnout Survivor”…
For the majority of the past 5 years I was in fight or flight mode, skimming the surface of taking care of me.
Monday of this week, something significant happened to me and its in the form of a gentle, yet abrupt experience. Time to take care of me, no matter what. Literally now.
At lunch, I was playing with my dog, with his ball. He had a toy in his mouth so I was using my foot to kick the ball back and forth to him. Until one time my foot didn’t hit the ball and my body and head fell backwards and slammed hard against the floor. It shocked me what just happened, how?! I instantly knew what I needed, and through sobbing tears I found a roller bottle, dumped its contents and began filling with oils – Frankincense, Copaiba, Balance, DDR and Cypress.
Frankincense is beautiful at supporting all systems within our body, but especially our nervous system. I knew this was a must have considering I just hit my head hard on the floor. Copaiba which is very grounding and calming, much of why I also added Balance. DDR is the cellular complex, oils that is also supportive to our nervous system, then I topped off the roller bottle with coconut oil. I also put a drop of DDR and Frankincense in my mouth. I rolled the oil blend over my neck front and back and my forehead and jaw.
After a couple days I was able to use the deep blue stick on my neck, I would roll the roller blend on first and then the deep blue stick over top. Layering can be very powerful with oils.
As a person who is not keen at all (anymore) on taking pain meds, this is something I did so that I could be comfortable and be able to get some rest. After going to the hospital – literally the only time we go there, wanted to be sure my neck was ok after falling. I was impressed with the speed at the hospital and them getting me in for an x-ray so quickly. Interestingly enough, the Dr I had to make a complaint about back in 2021 after my husbands x-ray was grossly misread, was the doctor on. It was like a flood of anger hit me as I walked back in from my x-ray and looked at my husband waiting for me in the room. Realizing even deeper, I have so much more healing from that time.
Whiplash and minor concussion the nurse told me, I never saw the doctor, yet interestingly enough his name went on my x-rays… thankfully I have pocket health and also read them myself after our 2021 medical system experience. The pain sucks. Energy, obviously much lower, I was exhausted that night, yet woke up I think every 2-3 hours.
I was able to use our red light wand a few days after, up until then I couldn’t handle the slight vibration on my neck. I also went and saw an oil friend who ironically taught my first Reiki course to me, as I walked into her home for the first Spinal Flow appointment, the energy shift I felt was profound. I was to see her on the Tuesday, however I knew I wouldn’t feel comfortable or able to drive. I felt much better going Thursday, end of the day, my eyes were already done with the computer, thankfully by taking regular breaks within the day I am able to use the computer. End of the day, is a welcome break and using my phone is almost non existent after work, I use it briefly during the day when needed. During my spinal flow appointment I felt a shift, she could see a shift. I am so grateful for these holistic modalities!
Truthfully its taken me all week to write this and that’s ok. This weekend I had many other plans than just hanging around my house all day resting… However, the universe had other plans and these times when you may feel forced into resting, there is deeper Healing that is open to me, open to getting me through this and also helping me process much of what still is underlying.
5 days later, still experiencing dizziness, can’t hold things for a while, or need to sit to do so, washed dishes and quickly realized that was not a great choice given the neck and upper back strain, however each day getting better. Consoling myself with the plans we did have originally this weekend with no hockey on the schedule. Allowing myself to feel the feels, its ok to be pissed off, its also ok to do nothing but heal.
Healing ironically, but not because there are no coincidences, is my word for 2025.
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