Ive heard it, Ive even said it myself.

Caregivers typically are the ones who end up needing taken care of…

Interesting when you are IN it though and you think you are doing all the things but in reality you are spreading yourself so damn thin you are merely skimming the surface.

This summer I noticed the pelvic pain coming back again. Pain I honestly haven’t had in MANY years. Truth be told, caring for my husband and son – both of whom had multiple surgeries, thank god not at the same time, but consecutively right after the other. This wife and mama was not only navigating a time when the government decided to play yo-yo with us, our physical and emotional health and our lives. In school, our of school, the fear mongering, the separation, it was hell. Honestly hell. From someone who thrives with connection, thrives with traditions and being around loved ones. I know this is when my physical health in 2020 took the first hit.

From Oct 2020 until early 2024 Pam was in caregiver mode. Prior to that, our life was like a yo-yo in and out of fight/flight based on what the government was forcing on people. Kids out and in to school then out again. Thinking of what they all needed, vs what I needed. It was too much to add in my own needs. I needed to get through the day ensuring my kids and husband were good.

Just as their healing was ending – with so much gratitude, I saw our senior dog going downhill. May was an interesting month of highs and lows and then November played out very similar just in human form.

Diamonds are created under pressure, yup I get it.

With the recent pelvic pain, I did the modern medicine thing, to ensure I didn’t have a massive cyst that may burst – yup the pain was/is real. I was concerned about being active due to the pain. Did the follow up with the gynecologist, already fully knowing and prepared for what I would be told. I already knew after two ultrasounds – which side note… whats happening in the medical system and time wasted – I was booked for an “emergency” U/S… of my pelvis, then had it re-booked so they could do an internal to see more – why wouldn’t that be common sense to do at the first appt, well for “emergency” appt’s they don’t book enough time. Ok. Rebooked a month and a half later. I call that morning to see if I need a full bladder when I am only coming for an internal ultrasound – the male tech who answered asked me what I meant by an internal ultrasound. Has the world changed that much that people cannot define what a woman is OR what an internal ultrasound would be for a woman – seriously? I then explained, well I am a woman and if the pelvic ultrasound didn’t show why Im having so much pain, my nurse practitioner wants me to have it internally, so inside me… because I am a woman. My lord. That appointment… booked from 1030-1230 was 8 minutes. Eight. From the time I went in, had the pelvic ultrasound, and then got undressed for the internal ultrasound (which the female tech called it that also). So why… why wouldn’t it have been done before – I digress.

I am back in my training mode, navigating what I knew years ago and what I did to shift my health in significant ways. What is frustrating, was being told by the Gynecologist that I had 3 options… 1. Birth control pill to “shut off my ovaries” (I had a hysterectomy in 2011 and many years ago being on the pill ruined my health when I went off of it – so its a HARD no for me!). 2. Carry around pain pills in my purse and take as necessary – this is exactly what I resorted to EVEN ON the pill for many years – truthfully about 15-34. 3. Do nothing and live with the pain. At no time did he ask about my lifestyle, what I eat, dietary habits for PCOS and Edometriosis. This is a very real “solution” its just not a quick one. Ive been through the – just give me a pill to “fix me”. Its not that simple. Big pharma is trained to get people hooked on drugs to be on for life. That’s not how I live anymore.

In 2014 I found holistic health options starting with doTERRA Essential oils & supplements. Truthfully during the past 5 years, I did great at taking care of everyone else… but me. I was merely skimming the surface and I can now see how much lower I would be if I hadn’t been able to.

So what am I back to doing… I will share soon but I am already feeling on the up and up, with more time it will get better!

If there is one thing my brothers life taught me, its to be YOU! Whatever that means for you. Choose happiness, choose health, choose well-being. I love that we both had that spiritual spark within us. The universal way, the knowing, the gratitude for living this life. The appreciation of memories, I am not the only one who captured memories in our family. What means the most now, is truly embracing who you truly are to your deep soul, we don’t know how much time we have here in this human experience, we are doing ourselves a disfavor when we choose to put what lights us up aside.

Will everyone understand my trust and love for essential oils, nope. Will someone elses heart and soul light up with excitement seeing a moment captured with my camera, nope. Will the same value of my oils and photographs make sense to someone else, most likely not.

Its what makes sense to me, its what lights up my heart and soul. Its what we are meant to do here on this planet, during our human experience. Before hatred and negativity hit the earth. There will always be duality, with light and dark, the evil forces however. Once erradicated, this planet will begin to thrive again.

What is key at this time, is making time for you, allowing your heart to speak, more importantly, learning to listen to yourself. This is the most challenging piece that people experience, they think they hear themself, yet its the voices of others.

Your true soul passions and loves, may not be what you live your life doing as a living, these practices, talents and arts may be the blossoming of your soul for YOU! Watch the magic your intuition can unfold over your life, when you listen!

Understanding the Laws of Karma: The Power of Cause and Effect

Karma is often discussed in spiritual and philosophical contexts, and it’s easy to see why. At its core, the law of karma is about cause and effect—what you put out into the world will eventually come back to you. This principle can serve as a guide for living an integral life, filled with honesty and authenticity.

The Nature of Karma

Many believe that those who intentionally seek to harm others will eventually face the consequences of their actions. Vindictive behavior creates a cycle of negativity that often leads to self-inflicted pain. In contrast, karma offers a universal law that helps free individuals from past hurt and pain that they did not cause. It’s a reminder that life has a way of balancing itself out.

Living an Integral Life

To embrace the laws of karma, we should strive to live with integrity. Being truthful and honest not only enhances our personal well-being but also contributes to a healthier community. The choices we make, both big and small, set the stage for our future experiences.

The 12 Laws of Karma

Understanding the laws of karma can deepen our awareness of our actions and their repercussions. Here’s a closer look at the 12 laws:

1. Law of Cause and Effect: Every action has a corresponding reaction. Good actions lead to positive outcomes, while harmful actions can result in suffering.
2. Law of Creation: We are the creators of our experiences. Our thoughts, intentions, and actions shape our reality.
3. Law of Humility: Accepting ourselves and others is crucial. If we deny something, we cannot change it.
4. Law of Growth: Our personal growth often requires us to confront and overcome challenges. Growth comes from within.
5. Law of Responsibility: We are responsible for our actions and the consequences that follow. Blaming others only perpetuates suffering.
6. Law of Connection: Everything is interconnected. Our actions impact not only ourselves but also the people and environment around us.
7. Law of Focus: What we focus on expands. By concentrating on positivity and growth, we invite more of it into our lives.
8. Law of Giving and Hospitality: Generosity opens the door to abundance. What we give often returns to us multiplied.
9. Law of Here and Now: The present moment is all we truly have. Living in the now allows us to make choices that positively affect our future.
10. Law of Change: Change is inevitable. Embracing it allows us to adapt and thrive.
11. Law of Patience and Reward: Good things come to those who wait. Patience is essential for reaping the rewards of our efforts.
12. Law of Significance and Inspiration: Every action we take matters. We can inspire others and create meaningful impacts in the world.

Karma is not just about punishment or reward; it’s a guiding principle that encourages us to live mindfully. By understanding and applying the laws of karma, we can cultivate a life of integrity, compassion, and positive impact. Let us strive to create good in the world, knowing that what we sow, we shall reap.

By embracing these principles, we not only enrich our lives but also contribute to a more harmonious world. So, let’s be mindful of our actions, and remember: the energy we put out there will always find its way back to us.

The law of karma embodies the principle of cause and effect: the energy you project into the world will ultimately return to you. This is why it’s essential to live in alignment with your highest self, embracing a life of health, truthfulness, and integrity. When you engage in lower, unethical energies—such as lying, deceit, dishonesty, neglect, hypocrisy, betrayal, gossip, exploitation, discrimination, and fraud—you not only compromise your own integrity but also attract similar negativity into your life, along with the inevitable consequences that follow. By choosing to elevate your actions and intentions, you create a ripple effect of positivity that can transform your life and the lives of those around you.

Karma has the power to liberate you from past pains that once felt insurmountable. It serves as a healing force, helping to transform deep emotional scars into opportunities for growth and understanding. Through the natural process of cause and effect, you can release the burdens of your past, allowing you to move forward with a renewed sense of purpose and peace. Embracing this journey can lead to profound healing, enabling you to rise above your struggles and find a brighter path ahead.

Karma has a way of correcting the injustices of the world, ultimately restoring balance and harmony. It acts as a guiding force, ensuring that wrongs are addressed and the truth prevails. By operating within this natural law, we can trust that integrity and compassion will pave the way for healing and transformation, allowing light to shine through even the darkest circumstances.

Karma reminds us to trust ourselves and the truths we hold within. It encourages deep healing by affirming that we never deserved to be treated unjustly. By embracing this understanding, we can release the weight of past experiences and reclaim our sense of worth. This journey fosters resilience and empowers us to move forward, knowing that we are worthy of respect and kindness. Through karma, we learn to honor our own truth and create a life aligned with love and authenticity.

Feeling relief or a sense of freedom when someone who betrayed you faces the consequences of their actions is a natural response. It doesn’t make you a bad person; rather, it reflects your journey of healing. Experiencing pain from betrayal can be deeply unsettling, and witnessing karma unfold can provide validation for your feelings.

It’s important to remember that your focus should remain on your own growth and healing. Instead of dwelling on their misfortunes, consider using this experience to reinforce your own boundaries and self-worth. Ultimately, finding peace and moving forward is what truly matters.