With the 11-11-2022 portal, I have felt a massive shift. I’ve been able to not only detach but also re-align with what is meant to be in my life right now.

It’s interesting, as a few days prior, I had a realization. Sometimes we can feel a misalignment or almost tangle within ourselves and it can feel challenging to figure out what that might be.

This is where hindsight is a beautiful thing, a few days prior to thr portal, I suddenly felt a beautiful sinking in settling. Where I first noticed this was at work. Almost an inner knowing that suddenly had peace, I hadn’t realized was missing or needed.

Just a couple weeks before this I began enjoying the most “perfect” Saturdays, where time literally felt like it was collapsing. I suddenly had an abundance of time, for not only all that I needed to get done, what I wanted to as well, this actually began taking priority.

Everyone has their own energy, we can also receive energy attachments over time and from people and various situations that can be literal energy vampires.

Freeing ourselves from this energy, from the people and embracing each day as the true gift that it is, will bless and enrich the lives of so many. The truest gift, is realizing our own truth. Not what our partner/spouse wants, not what our kids want, not what our parents/siblings/aunts/uncles/grand parents want.

When we sink into our truth, to be our true authentic self, that’s where the magic happens.

For a very long time I have felt the desire, the pull, to bake my own bread. I’ve felt compelled to buy a bread maker, felt overwhelmed trying to create GF homemade bread and have wasted so much time, money and ingredients. Until I finally leaned in, another October revelation of a way to replenish myself, also feed my creativity and enjoy fresh, healthy for me, bread!

Time collapses when I enter my bread creation vortex and its my new fav part of the weekend!

It’s true, the more authentic you are in your life, surround yourself with people who also have their own respectable ethics and values, based on truth and authenticity, This is magic. I appreciate and aim to surround myself with people with these qualities. This is the beautiful release felt, when the energies do not align and the source is removed.

Although I didn’t realize entirely until after, hindsight can be a very beautiful thing. For true replenishment, daily and weekly, sink in deep to any irregular feelings and allow yourself the time and peace to feel this through. What’s interesting is, if feeling this negative energy affect from others, they sadly may not even realize how off balance they are or how someone else may be affecting their own energy.

By becoming the expert of you, no other energies matter.

I find the seasons and cycles so fascinating! Also fascinating at how it can shift and change sometimes so quickly!

The other night, during a call with my energy queen, seriously she is amazing and I feel SO aligned with her, Avalon explained to us that this moon is the, if it’s not completely authentic AF it’s not for me, bringing the light to even more darkness, calling out the BS and just straight up not taking any shit. But also this is the time to bring this to our consciousness to really free what isn’t for us, to just let it go. Especially that version of us that we thought was it!

I began crying. As that was exactly how I have been feeling.

It was when she added in and I heard was, it’s going to be time for all of us who are care givers to take a giant step back and finally allow ourselves to focus on us.

Tears 😭

Big, heavy, ugly cry tears.

I said this to my husband recently, which took a LOT for me to admit. I’ve always been that “caregiver” type person, my entire life, sadly that has also meant, yes most times I’ve put Pam last. It’s been the past 8 years that I’ve begun to pour waaaay more into me, with a little less guilt every day. Not fully, however!

Having to admit that it’s been so incredibly hard, was hard. I of course, was thinking of him and didn’t want to hurt his feelings or God forbid the kids hear me, I would never want that. But truthfully, it’s been so very challenging feeling at times. I’ve appreciated my writing and photography outlets. Especially getting out in nature!

So with this moon, as I am learning, it’s helping bring things into alignment. What do I really actually want in my life, from space to people to material things. What is MY perfect life, what is abundance to me, how does all of this feel? How does it align?

I love our calls, simple for the God wink, when I hear something that was also in a message previously received by me. That is alignment, that is the magic of life.

As Avalon kept talking she explained to us that this new moon is a time to really get clear, what-who-where in our life. To define abundance for ME. What does abundance mean to me, what is freedom, what is my perfect day?

It’s easy to get sucked into what we are told abundance is – having a lot of money, yes obviously that is a blessing, especially these days where my goodness everything has gone up! However REALLY get clear on what it means for YOU as an individual.

Truthfully I had a very high goal as I was working up through the ranks with doTERRA. As much as I said I want to be Diamond, I didn’t want what that meant… traveling all.the.time. (it seemed like), public speaking, major events etc. What I’ve learned, that’s just not Pam. Pam, the true soul in me is into what doTERRA’s essential oils can do for our health and living a holistic lifestyle. That is Pam. That is what draws me in, that, is true health freedom for me!

This new moon, as I’m learning is getting clear and confident, regardless of what that is. Even if it’s taking a different route. Shifting one thing in my day, from the “norm”… you know the one, drive the same way to and from work. Or sitting in another spot in your living room or when you eat in your kitchen. I’ve caught myself actually saying this not that long ago when my husband and dog were sitting on the couch and I didn’t want to bother the dog so I sat somewhere else, it’s a different perspective than what we may always be in.

I truly appreciate the insight from Moon Omens.

I’m also going to share the beautiful journal prompts from Avalon! I truly appreciate and am grateful for the connection we have and the work she has helped me do. Best choice I made back in the summer of 2021 when I was almost beginning to spiral… secretly sadly!

If you are an empath and/or highly sensitive person you will appreciate Avalon’s brilliance!

What has help pour me even more into my photography, is its like my own “getaway” from reality sometimes, in a good way of course.

Regardless of what might be happening in life or in the world, when I get out with my camera… EVERYTHING else disappears. It’s me, my camera and nature.

One of my most favourite images, is also on the cover of my Rise & Rest Journal. When I captured this image, I was literally in a large patch of weeds, yup weeds. The sun was shining through absolutely beautifully, it was once I downloaded the images when I realized just how special it is.

Check it out…

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This image holds a lot of meaning, it was at a time when our lives suddenly changed over nignt. Even if I could get out for 5 or 10 minutes, it was a true solace for me.

Interesting perspective and beautiful revelation I had last night…

Our parents ceiling is our floor!

This past month has felt really challenging… many things literally outside of *my* control, having a sense of control over me. Breaking down systems that I feel sadly stuck in… in many ways.

It’s a mix of emotions. Big mix.
There is such an expansive energy out there, I feel it in nature. I feel the explosion of peace all around.

Then reality.
Someday’s I just want to scream.
The past, just over, 2 years has OPENED our eyes like never before.

Although there may be anger and tears, there is also so much gratitude and happiness.

A fickle of a place to be in, one that I KNOW is strong and manifesting all at the same time.

Even Healers, need healing.

One thing to leave with… as I look back on how life has shifted in 2 1/2 years, how many times I heard about how resilient kids are… If kids were so resilient… we wouldn’t have SO much mental health challenges and issues in our everyday life. People my age, older and younger all working on healing.

Enough with excuses. It’s time to take a stand, if for anyone, for you, for your kids, for your future grandkids.

Healing is an integral part to our being, and here’s the thing, it doesn’t matter where you live, work, play, surround yourself with… YOU have to do the deep healing for yourself…otherwise it will follow you everywhere you go and you will never be happy!

I’m happy I made time for ME this evening, even if just 15 minutes. Heart filled 💗

I used to! I taught a LOT of classes, helped alot of people get these oils and holistic health products into their homes.

But, if there isn’t a desire to SHIFT… You can have all the oils and holistic health products in your home and unless you WANT to shift your life, those oils and products are worthless.

Here’s the thing too… I HAVE a desire to continually grow, expand my energy and honor how I feel. Which is the people I attract into my wellness business.

I attract in those who want to be empowered within their own lives and educate themselves. Versus relying on someone else all of the time to tell you what to do.

So… no more beating myself up that I need to do this or that. When we are IN alignment, magic happens, beautifully!

So what does this mean… I am here to support your self service. I am a hands on learner myself, so I am taking my own lead. Questions, by all means, I’m here to help to find your way and the answers you need.

It’s time for people to truly be empowered, truly know their body inside and out and embrace that.

What works for me, will not exactly the same way, work for everyone else, we are all unique. If you have the desire…

You life is about to shift in an incredible way!!!

LINKS TO BEGIN YOUR EMPOWERED LIFE

Empower & Buy Essential Oils – http://www.mydoterra.com/pamelazmija

Healy Frequency Medicine – https://yourlifeasartessentials.com/healy-frequency-medicine/

Rise and Rest Journal – https://yourlifeasartessentials.com/your-life-as-art-planner-rise-rest-journal-and-notebook/

I’ve been a very frustrating few months that has felt massively condensed in these last few weeks.

Today, I could feel myself getting super irritated after I got home. Yet, I was all alone. Literally given 30 min of pure alone time at home to clear mind.

Truthfully, with the fuckery that has been I have not been able to be as productive at work or at home. Which then weighs on me, differently but equally annoying.

Today, I had full intentions of once I got back to get into some stuff that I needed to get done. I just couldn’t do it.

Instead I opted to clean the kitchen.

THIS couldn’t have been more clarifying for me. Clutter is the biggest mind fuck there ever was! I can admit, I am not at my healthiest, mentally, when there is alot of clutter.

As I was washing dishes, things kept falling back into the sink, or my one new pot has a spot that won’t come off, or my phone that as it’s over 2 yrs old it’s full of glitches now. As I am typing the keyboard is glitching and erasing every other letter. Until I actually type that and now it’s working perfect.

STOP

Here’s the thing… everyday won’t be perfect, it won’t always go as planned, life is a mystery and that’s part of the adventure. As much as things feel Uber sticky and heavy and gross right now… keep shining the light, feel the feelings, feel to heal.

Stopping, is SO beneficial on many levels. To lean in and have some compassion.

Its important for me to listen to myself when I need to lean in. When I get the urge to grab my camera and go on a tour, I lean in. I follow the lead. Sometimes it leads me to my favourite local places, other times the locations are unique.

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