I cherish my early morning time before anyone else, first pouring into me! How my day begins, truly does have reflect in my day.

My husband and I have truly lucked out finding a local masseuse who will come to us. We asked her if she would keep coming to us if we had our own table! Total win, win as we are both local and we have the table for Reiki and oil massages!

I am post-massage. I have listened to the messages I got Friday night, especially the Go Deeper. I took that one in and have focused alot of this weekend on things I wanted to get done (switching the word from “have” to) and also downtime and family time!

Enjoying this downtime while my husband is having his massage and truly taking in everything. I watched the Moses Code this morning after listening to the Moses Code meditation… and began reading the book also on Friday. There is so much power in breath and thought.

I remembered this during the massage. Normally, when it hurts, I noticed today I hold my breath and breathe shallow. Today, I went deeper. I breathed deeper and she instantly knew what I was doing. We worked together, her physically with my muscles and nerves and me with my breath. I think one of the best massages!

Sitting in the living room with my dog, our kids each have their own plans, admiring the gorgeous sunlight and our space. Once a dream and now much of it a reality. A reminder to simply pause and be in gratitude for today and this moment.

As things have been coming up, I have been able to remind myself we are cleansing, anything that comes up needs to be released. Many I expected, but some others have been interesting. The more I remind myself, the less attached I’ve been to whats coming up. 

The cards that I pulled this morning… my heart truly is feeling aligned and grateful. This gorgeous weather a true bonus!!!

Have a beautiful Sunday, get out and enjoy this amazing sunshine and warmth! 🙏💫🥰

I think of Health Care as completely different than how I grew up. I will preface this with, zero blame on my parents because they did what they knew and it was the “norm” to rely on doctors and pharmaceuticals.

If we really took a step back though, going to the doctor or hospital isn’t “health” care, its “sick” care. You go to them when you are sick or feeling unwell. This isn’t what I personally consider as health care. Health care in our province is something that sadly has advanced, yet also nullified.

In 2004, it was one of the happiest and sad couple months, sadly my mother in law passed just a couple months before our wedding. When she was sick, I learned that ovarian cancer is prostate cancer in men, so I booked my husband a physical the following spring. Our (then) male family doctor decided that my husband was “young enough and it shouldn’t be a problem at his age”. Even though the physical request specifically said to check prostate for that reason! And… might I add, I found that statement disrespectful. A woman is told she must have “annual” check ups To have not just 2 fingers, but an entire instrument shoved (quite literally) into her vagina. A male began the medical profession, I’m speculating. This is very apparent now.

Everyone has a purpose in this life, much more beyond a job. It’s our purpose for being here. Yes we need to work to provide for ourselves, which sadly continue to increase what feels like daily. It’s becoming abundantly clear to me that my purpose within this world is bringing awareness to true empowered holistic health care.

I am reminded WHY I have made the shifts that I have.

Honestly, today I am feeling a vast mix of emotions, truthfully.

I felt so prepared for our one get together, my husband and I made our fresh goat cheese to take, along with crackers I knew I would be able to have. However after that, when not eating at home its HARD. VERY very challening.

Hey, Im here for it, I can do hard things.

But its literally stepping out of the majority of norms and being 100% ok with this. Being ok with it literally also means not eating about 90% of the “prepared” meals at a get-together. Which also means things I used to love and enjoy – well I guess enjoy to a certain extent. I was still running to the bathroom at some point, I just didn’t know why.

Even “everyday things” such as meat and potatoes… what was it seasoned with and finished with. Yup something this simple affects me and then sadly, can snowball. Garlic, ugh its so sad to say, but nope. Great big hard no on that.

Its one thing to already feel out of place, because I have chosen to shift in such a strong way to honor my body and HOW I feel, but to literally feel like I cannot eat hardly anything. Which also then makes me feel horribly emotional because some of our family members are REALLY good cooks… sigh!

In the heat of the moment to say, no milk is ok, to literally not inconvenience anyone else or feel out of place. I paid for it. Almost instantly. Which truthfully sucked, but I did “choose” it because I was asked if I would be ok and I found myself falling back into that ‘people pleasing’ pattern and now am paying the full price.

I am grateful, truly grateful to have a partner in life who when I said to him I am done tonight, he picked up where I couldn’t. When I knew I had to go to bed, he didn’t once balk and knew if I said I needed that, I needed it.