Ive always found peace and comfort in writing. My husband can attest to the fact that any trade shows we used to go to, I collected the pens and note books!

Last week, the first day of remote learning, for the 3rd time in 13 months. I was feeling the mom guilt hard care. Even though I was reassuring my daughter (who started yesterday and my son started Wednesday) that we weren’t going to stress about this. We are going to go with the flow and you will also benefit from some real hands on life learning as well!

I sat down before bed and wrote up my “ideal day”. My ideal work day and my ideal weekend day. First off putting a block of time for ME each morning. Helping to get it out on paper and plan my day out so that I can also be somewhat present but more so available if the kids need me.

That day’s horoscope…

VIRGO HOROSCOPE

APRIL 20, 2021 You could have a variety of conflicted emotions, which could make you feel like withdrawing from the world today. Taking the time to sort out what is going on inside of you may be a way for you to not only better understand how you feel, but it could also help you maintain a greater sense of inner harmony. Perhaps keeping a simple list of the emotions you have as they arise throughout the day can make it easier for you to see the patterns of your feelings as they occur. The physical process of putting your ideas down on paper today could give your mind something tangible to focus on. This, in turn, might enable you to sort out the emotions you really should bring your attention to in the present moment and those you can think about later.

Writing provides the perfect means for us to work through our feelings. If we try to organize our thoughts mentally, we might notice that things can get even more convoluted. Our minds have the tendency to jump from one idea or conclusion to the other. The act of writing, however, makes our thoughts more concrete, placing them in a form that shows what our inner self is trying to articulate and giving us something grounded in the physical reality of the present to focus on. By spending time reflecting on and noting how you feel and when you feel something noteworthy, you will create greater harmony and peace of mind for yourself today. (Source – DailyOM)

Control what’s within my control. Release what is not. Writing helps immensely to re-focus on what IS within my reach and what I need to release.

Also being conscious about using my oils. I KNOW they work for mental health, because I have felt it myself. Getting oils ON me and IN the diffuser.

This morning I used Amavi on my spine, In Tune down my neck. Jasmine on my jaw line. Rose and Helichrysum as a “deodorant” today and Magnolia on my wrists and arms.

Amavi – Balanced Masculine Energy
In Tune – Presence
Rose – Divine Love
Helichrysum – For Pain
Magnolia – Compassion

What is super interesting, well I find interesting is I am using the Rose and Helichrysum on my arm pits as I had a bit of a flare up. Not surprisingly as stress can do this to me, in a combination with any changes. Years ago I used those “pads” that you can “gently rub on your skin and remove excess hair”… let me save your time and agony, don’t do it! Its now become a very sensitive area of skin on my body and can flare up and get quite painful. Its almost as if an allergic reaction. I have been paying more attention to what is tied to this and will continue as I need to weed through some options. I also feel like I may have higher levels of Candida in my body, not alarming but noticeable. However I looked up in my Louise Hay Book – You Can Heal Your Life and found this…

Allergies – Who are you allergic to? Denying your own power?
Affirmation: The world is safe and friendly. I am safe. I am at peace with life.

Candida – Feeling very scattered. Lots of frustration and anger. Demanding an untrusting in relationships. Great takers.
Affirmation: I give myself permission to be all that I can be, and I deserve the very best in life. I love and appreciate myself and others.

When you can see that you have shifted, it feels empowering. I really and truly didn’t want to work out after work. I honestly didn’t want to do anything. I have a lot of mixed feelings for the province that I live in.

I pushed through. I stayed committed to my daily movement. I stayed true to me. This next level me.

The next level me who is prioritizing my health. Who understands that it was by making these life shifts, I am living a healthier and thus happier life.

Getting a jab does not “make you healthy”. Life choices do. Yes sometimes there is unfortunate losses. I have lost many loved ones to horrible diseases that have felt so incredibly unfair. For the Gov’t to imply we cannot get back to ‘normalcy’ until a certain percentage have had the jab?! Still nothing said about the importance of living a healthy lifestyle which does strengthen your immune system, when you are healthier you can better heal when needed. Healthier lifestyles will reduce the load on the medical system in our country. From my own experience I have seen this with my health!

I chose to take control of my health, own it, be empowered to create the life I want to live.

Which does not include being told what is and isn’t essential in my life.

If I listened to what modern medicine was telling me my “only options” were to feel better… I would not be where I am today.

And quite honestly, thank god I am where I am at today, the me many years ago was very weak mentally and physically. When you don’t feel good, it’s too easy to sink, feel down and get sick.

We are in a mental health crisis and children are a major target. Parents are drained, mentally. Kids now “technically” confined to the property we live on. Feeling truly grateful we live in a rural area. Feeling for those who do not and the Gov’t has closed parks.

Pulled a card tonight, feels aligned. Let yourself be seen.

Popcorn in bed, home made french onion dip with the yummy tropical oil blend and a movie.

Will try to wrap my head around reality tomorrow.

Feeling much more balanced today. Energy balance and grounding can have such a profound effect! 💫

This was the card I pulled after my workout… Wait.

Interesting perspective.
Trust 🙏 Patience
The unknown.
Which can feel challenging.
I am grateful for the reminder.
Embracing the ‘opportunity’ of all our free time at home 🥰

Oils for my Workout – Anchor and Align
Oils for Bedtime – Cedarwood, Petitgrain and Tangerine

Week 3 Day 3 DONE!!!
I LOVE working with weights haha waaaay more than cardio 😂

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Mid day I was feeling off, energy felt off, woke up way too early today and didn’t get back to sleep. My top strength is Futuristic… sometimes this can work against me thinking too much into the future… especially as a mama! The mom guilt I was feeling, was very real.

So I pulled these beauties out and truth be told, I have never looked up some of their emotional uses for these oils. I applied the oils and then looked them up and was delighted to read their meanings!

Amavi – Balanced Masculine Energy
In Tune – Presence
Neroli – Shared Purpose & Partnership
Jasmine – Sexual Purity & Balance
Magnolia – Compassion
Rose – Divine Love

Amavi on my spine and back of my neck. In tune down the back of my neck. This blend is awesome for helping focus the mind to stay in the right lane. Neroli I love on my wrists, chest and sides of my neck. Jasmine down the jaw line. Magnolia I also love all over my arms and Rose, beloved, over my heart ♥️

Going to do some chakra work tonight as well to bring those into balance and then give my husband and kids a treatment in the next few days!

Its truly incredible, well I think so, how I can apply these oils and not even think about it, and things begin to come back into alignment as they need to be. Reminding myself to focus on what’s within my control and release what is not. As much as it makes me really mad how the government is literally using our children as pawns in a wicked game, I am so grateful to live where we do. To have space for each of us to be as  individual’s and together as a family. To foster their growth beyond what the “curriculum” says they need to learn and incorporate a lot more life learning! Beyond a screen.

Taking a deeeeep breath that all is well and will be well.

Someone once told me many years ago, during a very challenging time in my life, sometimes when it feels like everything is falling apart and it feels like the end… it may actually be the beginning of something truly incredible 🙏🥰✌

I pulled this card before working out!

Many years ago I would hear about using your intuition or following your heart. I would always question that, simply because I was hurt so many times. How could I trust my heart, when it was broken repeatedly and felt led astray.

I then began learning the importance of getting quiet and going within. Something I stumbled upon after high school. When I truly began to step into a higher part of me.

It’s also the time that I reached out and found counselling. Without a soul knowing. Even my husband, who was my boyfriend at the time. I strategically planned my appointments, found a therapist that ironically was very close to where he lived. I was ashamed to admit I had “allowed” myself to be abused for so many years and was hurting. We were having so much fun together, he knew about some of my past hurts and “baggage”, but I certainly didn’t want him to think I was “crazy”.

It’s sad that that was my fear… because when I finally did open up and told him about my appointments he was very supportive and understanding, but most of all loved me. All of me!

Mental health is a key aspect of our life. It’s one that truly does help us feel calm, grounded, content and at peace vs feeling like in fear, scared, controlled, verbally and emotionally abused.

Yesterday was heavy feeling for me. So I allowed myself to FEEL it. I allowed myself patience, grace and ease. I’ve done a lot of personal growth both emotionally and physically. There is something about being told “you have to stay home except for essential reasons such as…”.

Its everyone’s right to get what they need. Reiki, Reflexology, Manicures, Pedicures, a Hair Cut! Ontario is in a 3rd “Lockdown”, that in itself is slightly triggering for me, however I will save that for another day. What I am thankful for is allowing myself patience, which also included going within yesterday and today, energetically. Giving myself permission to just BE, whatever that may look like <3

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