I had a few revelations this past weekend that I wanted to share.
I could feel myself teetering on the edge of depression, anxiety, honestly a combination.
The winter is typically the hardest for most people, its darker, meaning less natural light, colder, less to do outside because of the weather.
What hit me this weekend is that in this past year and a half our kids have grown up super fast. At a rate I truly do admire and respect them for, but also at a rate of WTF?!
I have always reminded myself, enjoy the stage you are in because it wont last forever. Yes some of those stages felt like, forever.
Now more than ever with two teens, both doing remote learning and pretty much have been on and off for what 15 months now. Our lives have drastically changed, especially for children and parents.
I have always been interested in energy, but didn’t really know how to explain it earlier in my life, so what I gravitated towards was horoscopes and it always blew me away how aligned they could be!
I received this email, from Moon Omens for the month of May <3
“May 2021 is likely to be a month of intellectual restlessness, heightened stimulation, and quick change: it has the potential to be an interesting chapter of our learning journey. During the first half of the month, before Eclipse Season starts, we have an opportunity to ground in our body and establish a strong connection with our foundation, which will help us handle any changes and volatility from a self-secure place. Jupiter in Pisces will support our capacity to tap into our imagination, creativity, and connect with a strong sense of faith.
Eclipses open a portal of change, they are gateways of transformation, they bring us opportunities and revelations and allow us to quantum leap into the future. May 2021 has the potential to represent an exciting time for many of us: the invitation is to stay open to the unfamiliar and trust ourselves enough to join the shift without fear.“
What I do truly love about this is, along my journey as I grow and learn I do feel my energy in May is already so much stronger than April. Especially the end of April.
I am truly grateful for this wee furry kitten. She came into our life last year at the perfect, and slightly unexpected time. What we once thought was an emotional month, losing our beloved Paisley cat and finding our Missy, January was nothing compared to what we braced for in March.
Missy continues to remind us daily the importance of patience. She has her daily routine and outside of that it can feel like 50 First Dates 😂.
She is a sweet loving girl who will never ever have to live in fear again and will always be loved.
(Read that last sentence again…)
Kind of like each of us can… 🥰
She is learning trust and love more and more each day, because we respect her and her need for space and tell her every day she is loved and her big brother would probably love her too 😉
Although she spends most of her time downstairs, she ventures up at night, has acquainted herself with the bird, understands the pet order of the house and curiously is intrigued by daytime life upstairs.
A good kitty lesson about trust, love, living in alignment to release fear and choose love, regardless of what may have driven you to that fear in the past ! 🥰🙏💫
Mental health has become an important part of every day. 🥰 Especially in 2020 and even more last October. Feeling the feelings. Letting go of pressures of the to-do list and trusting in the process and Divine timing!
I’m really enjoying being into reading again. I may not be the fastest reader at the moment, but I enjoy the inspiration! Finishing “Think Like A Monk” and excited to dive into “Untamed”! Using my oils so much more and letting my healing energy flow. A beautiful, relaxing evening, even with the power flickering! Sharing the gifts of healing energy, I introduced my husband to the benefits of tapping after his Reiki treatment!
Tonight’s diffuser blend for our home… Lemongrass – Cleansing Siberian Fir – Aging and Perspective Green Mandarin – Pure Potential Northern Escape
From one empath to another, this has been a bit of a wild ride but it’s so worth it. Honestly, this last full moon, the energy was intense, extremely intense. There is major energy shifts happening for a lot of people, growth, facing past shadows and releasing pain. Allowing to feel the feelings and work through. Change can feel challenging, I get it, very much. But change can also be beautiful and a gift many of us didn’t perhaps know we needed.
After hearing whispers to get tapping again, I aligned with Jessica (@theessentialmind8) for a tapping workshop, something I honestly used to do a few years ago with Brad @tapwithbrad as I was amidst some massive growth progress in my life.
Oils and Energy fascinate me so much. Also why I went through the @doterraca Essential Oil Specialist training, my Reiki 1 & 2 and used EFT (tapping) to move energy and increase frequency.
After oiling up with a variety of oils, tapping with Jess Wednesday night and ensuring the diffuser was on, it was the first night in a very long time that I slept through the night. I woke and it was still dark, assuming it was 2 or 3am, as per normal, nope 5am!!!
That night after my workshop, I showered and then gave Jaz a Reiki treatment on his lower leg and ankle.
Last night, showered before bed, water I’ve found is spiritually so cleansing for me, especially to help reset my energy for sleep and the day ahead. Got the diffuser going and used the Precious Florals as our bedtime oils for me and the kids. Tapped off and on last night freeing more energy from my shoulders. Honestly, Pain that had me crying last week, frustrated because I had to pause my work outs. So much pain I booked a chiro appt with the wonderful @brianne.odriscoll.dc and am really looking forward to my adjustment today.
But what I’ve been reminded of… alot of the time our physical pain we are feeling, IS related to our emotions. The pain that was feeling really bad on Wednesday, before the workshop, has lessened a LOT. Not only that but I fell asleep naturally shortly after 10pm and slept through until just before my alarm at 530am… my goal, wake before the alarm!
Oils in our diffuser last night… Air X, Cedarwood and Petitgrain. Ive been really loving this blend this week! Oils on me this morning, Rose, Tea Tree and Adaptiv!
The roller blend I created Wednesday to help with my shoulder tension/pain includes:
Copaiba – Unveiling
Frankincense – Truth
Deep Blue – Surrendering Pain
Birch – Support
Lemongrass – Cleansing
Check out these meanings… honestly check them out. These oils are all supportive for what I am dealing with physically and check out the emotional meanings! Yeah!!!
Sometimes as an Empath we not only feel energy, really easy, we also live a very authentic, real, ethical life. Which can feel very challenging when you have dealings with people who clearly are not.
Working in business, I have found this to be one of my most challenging aspects of my “job” when people are less than truthful, straight up lie and hide behind entities that the government allows them to create… some over and over and over again.
As if I needed another reason to “hate” our government. They’ve given me another one and the very challenging thing about that, is I literally cannot talk about it, even though my actions are in the right and theirs are completely in the wrong.
I understand, as I work for our family business, I also take things to heart and I know there are times that I must distance myself and not. However this is challenging, taking people’s word and then being blatantly lied to and on top of that being told by the older man that he wouldn’t discuss this with the woman, only the man.
What is it honestly going to take in this world for equality and fairness? I ask this in a general sense. The government is currently trying to mandate all of these new “rules” many of which violate our constitutional rights as Canadian’s and yet so many people are just saying ok, the government says this so we must do it. When is the government going to actually care about their people, about their communities, their businesses and thus holding people responsible even if they try to hide behind a corporation.
This just simply isn’t just, it isn’t fair and this isn’t how I want to see my children and future grand children living in a world that this is simply allowed?
Honestly I wonder, why do I bother paying taxes?! Why do I bother being an honest, hard working individual when people can straight up lie and hide behind a numbered company and shield themselves from having to be the honest, stand up person that they are supposed to be. Why is it that they can get away with this, literally and yet if one of us personally didn’t pay something or do what they want us to do, they make our lives hard?
This does NOT make any sense to me and drives me even harder to stand up for what is right, because this simply is NOT! I may be one person but there has to be something that can be done to not allow this or to begin to dismantle this horribly broken system. Which clearly is long past due…
Honestly 99% of the people I deal with through my job, are amazing. They truly are. Super friendly, grateful and appreciative. Then there is the flip side that honestly, Ive realized the best thing I can do on those days, when I get home get in the shower, allow the water to literally cleanse and wash any residue of negative energy away.
As we approach Mothers Day 2021, I am reminded of last year. Easter, spent alone and then Mother’s Day. I remember going to our parents house and saying how much I did NOT care what the Government was saying what we could and couldn’t do. My husband, kids and I stopped to see my Mom and two Grama’s. Sadly, we lost my husbands mom just two months before our wedding back in 2004.
If you are new to my blog, Mother’s Day is significant not just for my own mother and mother in law’s appreciation and gratitude for them, but to acknowledge my own journey to become a mother after our own journey through infertility.
This weekend a family member sent out a Zoom Mothers Day Chat for a couple weeks on Mother’s Day. The emotions over the past week have been slightly intense with this super full moon moving in and last night it hit me. I honestly feel like I am mourning family members… who are still living.
This is the reality and sadness of this current situation that we cannot seem to escape from. The control the various government entities continue to pile onto us as individuals, couples, families, parents, children, is beyond. The expectations are futile.
Enough is enough.
People must be empowered with the responsibility of their own health. Because lets look at reality, what I do for my health – is FOR ME. What I do for my kids health, educates them and empowers them and – is FOR THEM. Education is a HUGE piece of healthcare in our home. Actions and consequences. For an illness that has affected far less people than Cancer or Heart Disease. Both of which is in both sides of our family.
Fortunately, there are many things you can do to reduce your chances of getting heart disease:
Control your blood pressure.High blood pressure is a major risk factor for heart disease. It is important to get your blood pressure checked regularly – at least once a year for most adults, and more often if you have high blood pressure. Take steps, including lifestyle changes, to prevent or control high blood pressure.
Keep your cholesterol and triglyceride levels under control. High levels of cholesterol can clog your arteries and raise your risk of coronary artery disease and heart attack. Lifestyle changes and medicines (if needed) can lower your cholesterol. Triglycerides are another type of fat in the blood. High levels of triglycerides may also raise the risk of coronary artery disease, especially in women.
Stay at a healthy weight. Being overweight or having obesity can increase your risk for heart disease. This is mostly because they are linked to other heart disease risk factors, including high blood cholesterol and triglyceride levels, high blood pressure, and diabetes. Controlling your weight can lower these risks.
Eat a healthy diet. Try to limit saturated fats, foods high in sodium, and added sugars. Eat plenty of fresh fruit, vegetables, and whole grains. The DASH diet is an example of an eating plan that can help you to lower your blood pressure and cholesterol, two things that can lower your risk of heart disease.
Get regular exercise. Exercise has many benefits, including strengthening your heart and improving your circulation. It can also help you maintain a healthy weight and lower cholesterol and blood pressure. All of these can lower your risk of heart disease.
Limit alcohol. Drinking too much alcohol can raise your blood pressure. It also adds extra calories, which may cause weight gain. Both of those raise your risk of heart disease. Men should have no more than two alcoholic drinks per day, and women should not have more than one.
Don’t smoke. Cigarette smoking raises your blood pressure and puts you at higher risk for heart attack and stroke. If you do not smoke, do not start. If you do smoke, quitting will lower your risk for heart disease. You can talk with your health care provider for help in finding the best way for you to quit.
Manage stress.Stress is linked to heart disease in many ways. It can raise your blood pressure. Extreme stress can be a “trigger” for a heart attack. Also, some common ways of coping with stress, such as overeating, heavy drinking, and smoking, are bad for your heart. Some ways to help manage your stress include exercise, listening to music, focusing on something calm or peaceful, and meditating.
Manage diabetes. Having diabetes doubles your risk of diabetic heart disease. That is because over time, high blood sugar from diabetes can damage your blood vessels and the nerves that control your heart and blood vessels. So, it is important to get tested for diabetes, and if you have it, to keep it under control.
Make sure that you get enough sleep. If you don’t get enough sleep, you raise your risk of high blood pressure, obesity, and diabetes. Those three things can raise your risk for heart disease. Most adults need 7 to 9 hours of sleep per night. Make sure that you have good sleep habits. If you have frequent sleep problems, contact your health care provider. One problem, sleep apnea, causes people to briefly stop breathing many times during sleep. This interferes with your ability to get a good rest and can raise your risk of heart disease. If you think you might have it, ask your doctor about having a sleep study. And if you do have sleep apnea, make sure that you get treatment for it.
So interestingly enough, many of these points, also improve your immune function as well. Speaking from experience 100% but also,
Honestly, whats super concerning is the fear being injected into people through the mainstream media sources telling people how deadly this virus is and that if they see other people and do not stay home they could hurt or kill them… This fear being injected into children again and again…
As someone who has experienced infertility myself, I KNOW the devasating effects to a woman’s mental health and as well a couple’s marriage and relationship. I would like to direct your attention to VAXX injuries that caused a “spontaneous abortion” (honestly not sure why its called abortion as the woman does not choose to miscarry… however):
ABORTION SPONTANEOUS
86
0.10%
ANXIETY
1,009
1.17%
ARTHRALGIA
5,307
6.18%
is a symptom of injury, infection, illness (in particular arthritis), or an allergic reaction to medication
ASTHENIA
3,508
4.08%
BACK PAIN
1,565
1.82%
BELL’S PALSY
248
0.29%
BLOOD PRESSURE INCREASED
1,214
1.41%
BODY TEMPERATURE INCREASED
1,635
1.90%
CARDIAC ARREST
312
0.36%
CEREBROVASCULAR ACCIDENT
450
0.52%
The sudden death of some brain cells due to lack of oxygen when the blood flow to the brain is impaired by blockage or rupture of an artery to the brain. A CVA is also referred to as a stroke. Symptoms of a stroke depend on the area of the brain affected.
COVID-19
1,657
1.93%
DEATH
2,558
2.98%
To see this information for yourself (which I highly recommend) please go to the link below. I searched only based on the Covid-19 Vaxx and did not separate age, gender etc.
Access WONDER data by completing and submitting a request page.
Now keeping in mind the numbers from Canada, based on the current “active” cases in Canada – 84,313 by how many cases Canada has had (which also does not mean illnesses either…) which is 1,194,989 this equates to 0.070%.
Why do I highlight this…
Because MORE people, women specifically because men cannot have a miscarriage, than those affected by covid currently are being injured by this “solution” that the government is trying to force on everyone.
Personal choice 100% – one that if you feel this is the only way you will feel safe that is YOUR CHOICE. Just like its mine to choose to not have it.
… and now Trudeau is hinting at a VAXX passport to be able to travel, which haha how many of us were called “conspiracy theorists” when we said this last year. Sadly… as I seriously feel like I am mourning my living family, the government continues to push and push more and more control.
I actually had a very nice conversation with a customer today, who told me about their travel back from Mexico this spring and how they flew into Buffalo to avoid the isolation centers at the airport and opted to take a shuttle into Canada. I was happy to hear this service is available as it allows people to go to their home, as they should. He did also let me know that last week the “covid police” stopped in to “check on them” during their quarantine… even after multiple negative tests. He told me he and his wife were booked to get their shots today and then asked me if I booked mine, I politely told him no we weren’t going to be getting it (speaking for myself, husband and kids). He politely asked why, so I simply explained we have never chosen or needed to get the flu vaxx and we have shifted our lifestyle for our health. It was a beautiful conversation with mutual respect on both sides. Absolutely no hard feelings, no you should do this or that, real honest respect which I truly was grateful for!
People shouldn’t be mourning their living family members… they should be LIVING — EXPERIENCING LIFE, HAVING FUN, LAUGHING, HUGGING, TOGETHER!!!
As an empath, I feel the energy of my surroundings strongly. Especially working with others, whether in person, over the phone or email. There is an energetic exchange. Thankfully 99% of those exchanges are positive experiences, albeit still I truly see the benefits to solidifying a beautiful morning routine block to ground myself heading into the day.
This super full moon in scorpio is intense! I’ve been feeling the effects since last week, when I said a full moon had to be coming and sure enough!
I allowed myself grace and ease this weekend. Completely staying off social media on Sunday. I had a great day, for me. Even if that day also included a chunk of work, which was also highly productive. I rested, read, wrote, alot. Just went with the flow. Listened to some mentors.
I saw a great post on Insta from @girlandhermoon.
This is what stood out to me about this full moon!
Oils for this full moon experience:
In the diffuser. Cedarwood – Community. Air X – Making Way for Newness. Petitgrain – Ancestry.
Alot of time when I am on instagram and see a swipe up link that I am interested in, I open it in a new tab, to go back and read later.
In becoming more purposeful with my time and energy, this evening when I was viewing something I was interested in, I opened it and then made sure I didn’t just jump back to insta and scroll. I actually looked at what made me open that link!
My heart has been pulled in what feels like 50 different directions, especially since the fall of 2020. I had genuinely hoped to be doing some more oil education etc by now, however this isn’t what is unfolding as of yet.
Outside of my daily job, children now home doing remote learning, mental health is a key factor and my husband is still deep in healing from his accident last October. I have learned the importance of focusing on ME first and ensuring that my base, my mental health and physical health is the best that it can be.
I am very strong in my beliefs, values, ethics and truths at this time and am having a very challenging time having any government entity of any kind, who do not know me, or my children or my husband, telling us what we need to do for our health.
Truthfully, this came to a head today after being told by WSIB that their nurse determined my husband should be fully healed by April 30th, after NEVER seeing him or even ever speaking with him. Anyone who knows my husband or has seen him in the past 6+ months, knows he is not healed and I as his wife and who works with him, want nothing more than for him to be back to 100% and be healed. This is not the case at this time.
If you are one of my oil customers and you are like me who takes research into their own hands and would like to learn on your own time and terms… PLEASE reach out as I can get you plugged into our online learning where you can go at your own pace!
I knew on Friday that either a Full Moon or New Moon was coming up. The full moon is tomorrow. My energy has been slightly off. My body was physically tense and I gave myself permission to take the weekend ‘off’.
Exercising and daily movement of my body, honestly this is new to my routine. I am loving it. I am loving how I feel. I am loving how my clothes fit. I pulled something in my shoulder and I knew I needed to honor my body and allow grace and ease.
Yesterday, the spring weather was back. I am grateful I got out and captured some nature shots as this morning the temps dropped drastically and the dandelions were shriveled up!
A gorgeous bee in the dandelions yesterday. One reason I am purposeful about our spring clean up and not doing it too soon!
I spotted this dude in our back yard, I could hear the distinct buzzing sound and found him behind our shop. I managed to get this picture before he flew up, pretty much looked at me and then flew in the other direction. 2021 the year of space.
I do remember this feeling all to well. Change can feel hard, guilt feels so much worse. Its something for me to work on and trust that this IS going to work out for everyone’s best interest, eventually. I do truly pray for this.
As much as our lives haven’t drastically changed, we both work in what is classified by the government as “essential service” and we work with my family, they are our bubble and have been the entire time. However this has been a toll on every single person’s mental health. As I journaled last night, I decided how I would shape my day on Sunday, with ample time for relaxing, reading, writing, downloading my photos. Some dedicated me time. Something we are all craving right now. Me time alone but also with others. Nature, Fishing, Art, Photography… truly grateful they all complement each other. Giving my girl and I some subjects and shots.
Another social media break today, which hits me, why does it need to be a “break”. Sure its great to see what people are doing, I love it for the photos. Honestly I am such a visual person. But it doesn’t need to be near as much time as I was spending. This tends to be my go to as I begin feeling heavy, which last week was beginning to feel like that.
If you have been feeling slightly off, not sleeping right, appetite change, cravings, irritability, anxiousness, frustration, anger — there is no “normal” right now. Take a deep breath and FEEL the feelings. Allow yourself permission, cry, scream, write, run, walk, lift weights, sing, dance, whatever you need to do to help process and move them through. Even a 10 minute meditation can drastically calm the mind.
This evening, I pulled this card,
INNER EARTH – You’ll survive this. New solutions and beginnings. <3
Enjoy this Sunday evening, however your heart fulls pulled to.
